God is Love

Perfection in Imperfection

2010-10-06T23:04:00.003+08:00

Don't be tricked by the world when they say that man is good by nature. WRONG! Man has been born with a character that is self-seeking, selfish, proud and is a sinner as such!

Watching too much TV? Be careful you don't get too bowled over by the dream couples in movies! When that happens, you may forget that there is no perfect man.

If we were perfect, we wouldn't need to be refined by God! But as such, we are on earth to be perfected from our imperfections, to be purified from our impurities, and to be refined like gold.

Temptations. 1 Corin 10: 13 says that the Lord will not allow us to be tempted beyond what we can bear, for the Lord will uphold us with his right hand and deliver us from our fears!! The upright will stand for the Lord is faithful to all who seek Him first.

Jesus was tempted so so many times. He was even tempted to disobey God and refuse the cup of death. Such a shock when we think that Jesus was supposedly perfect?! Well, He IS PERFECT. Jesus shows us that even Holy God the Son was faced with temptations all the time on earth!! Yet, Jesus was WITHOUT SIN.

Sin is the result of/is chosing and responding wrongly to temptations. Only Jesus could be without sin in the face of temptations. We have been destined to be LIKE Jesus, no less. We have the Holy Spirit which guides us to make Godly choices and overcome satan's deceptions!

There will be perfection in imperfection because we are destined for eternity with a perfect and Holy God!!!

Past year in Brisbane

2010-08-01T16:20:00.002+08:00

I am blogging again after another 6months. Well this journey has had its tough, and not so tough times. As I have grown, I also have fallen weaker in some other aspects. I realise that I am too affected by what other people say about me. This shouldn't be the case. To live a victorious live in Christ, I cannot succumb to lies and deceptions that I am any less victorious!!!

In Christ, we have the authority to COMMAND the devil to flee! For in Jesus name, all prinicpalities are bound and all things that are not of you will be destroyed!!!!

I may feel weak, I may feel hopeless and helpless. BUT, in Christ I am a warrior. I am invicible. I am woman!! Woman of God! :)

New life in Brisbane.

2009-11-10T00:41:00.003+08:00

Don't know what to say here...so many things changed and I have grown so much spriritually, emotionally...

Thank God for bringing us here, as daddy has finally become the spritual leader of our family!!! Well mummy is struggling with fears and ocpd-ness and learning to let go, and we are given the chance to depend on God as a family! Well meizi is learning to love studying law as well, and I'm going to start school once again!!! Most of all, thank God for giving me friends back in Singapore...friends whom I know are there for me when I need.

Yueling, thanks for being my best friend. I know you trust me and share with me your concerns...Thanks for being so willing to listen to me and allthe naggy stuff I have to tell you! I really hope that one day you can nag me about things too! :P I really love you and wish you would accept Jesus as your Saviour one day! He is the source of my joy and hope! I want that for you too!!! Anyways, thanks dearie, you never fail to remember me on every occasion possible, always sending me lovely presents and thinking of me on every holiday trip! I'm listening to the 10 over music cds you burnt for me long ago...here in brisbane im so thankful for the chinese and canto songs!!! I miss you bestest fren!!! I will try to be back in Singapore for your 24th birthday next year!!! :)

Cheryl, thanks for being my spiritual partner. I know that whenever I have any needs, you will be there praying for me and encouraging me! I'm so thankful that we both can confide in each other all deepest and darkest things about ourselves and our relationships...really so different with God in the centre of our friendship! It's so funny that we never really missed each other in Singapore though we rarely met up, yet over here in Brisbane our friendship has grown even closer and more intimate!!! Let's continue to grow together towards holiness!!

Joanna, my playmate and sister! I know nursing is so tough, yet you never forget your family and friends!!! You are an amazing dear! I know that you are so tired with studying and working at the same time, yet you are a great testimony to all those around you! Thank you for treating me as family, as your sister and good friend! I never forget you and always am praying for your strength and health as you support your family! I believe that the Lord WILL send you someone who will love and cherish you likeyou have been a blessing to all those around you!! Hold on unswervingly to our hope in Jesus Christ! Hebrews 10.

Samuel Boey Wai Kit, my samy dear...you have been so supportive of me, accepting me for who I am and teaching me so much to grow in faith and love. Thank you for showing me what 1 corinthians 13 really means!!! Though we are so far apart, yet we have commited to come together consistently, praying and exploring the Lord's Word with each other!!! Thank you for waiting for me, and now for waiting with me... And of course, for even coming to spend this Christmas week with me!!! One week only though :( im so scared that i will not bear to let you leave after Christmas week, yet I know that the Lord is moulding us both in faith, hope and love! We will not grow apart as long as we are growing together towards our heavenly Father who loves us and has a higher purpose for us! Don't know how our future will be, but I know for sure what the big 'C' is: Commitment. Let's be commited to obeying the Lord our God and be there for each other, to admonish and teach each other the Word. :) I am praying for whatever career path you choose...for it to be a job that you can grow in holiness, where we can both serve and praise the Lord together! :)

Oh yes, and thank God for bsf...what seemed initially to be just to keep mummy company, has become God's way of speaking to me and admonishing me! I am humbled yet again by God your amazing and awesome way of calling out to your child! Many things to be thankful for, all because Jesus you died on the cross for sinners such as me. Your grace. Undeserving favour. Not works but grace alone that saves. Saving Grace.

Oh how I long to dwell in your presence forever oh Lord!

God loves you

2009-01-22T00:12:00.004+08:00

Indeed life is full of disappointments and upsetting things that make me wonder if there is truly a God, why does He let me suffer all this? Why does He let my friends suffer all that?

Amidst all my disappointments and hurt, the only reason worth living for, is that I know my Lord Jesus Christ died on the cross for my sins. It's not my imagination, it' s not some made-up story. It's a FACT. Frank Morrison, the writer of "Who Moved the Stone" set out to prove Christianity a lie and a hoax, but ends up finding all evidence which points to Jesus Christ's live, death and resurrection! His book ended up being His testimony for Christ instead! If Jesus resurrected, then His whole life and teachings were true! If they were true, then His Father, our Almighty God, is real! If our God loves us so much as to die on the cross for our sins, surely he won't give us anything bad??

The only reason we think that there is no God, or that God does not love us, is cos we choose to believe our humanly emotions and FEELINGS. We forget the fact that Jesus loves us so so much! Same thing when our parents disciplined and caned us aint it? We hated them for it. We doubted that they even love us. Upon retrospect, we now know they love us, that's why they discipline us. Same with God!

God's love may be bitter at times, but it so that we become more mature in our FAITH!

1. Fact (Jesus loves us)
2. Faith (God wants the best for us)
3. Feeling (happy or sad, we must be joyful)

These 3 Fs in any other order would cause us cognitive dissonance! Thanks Cheryl for teaching me that!

dawn of a new day

2008-10-13T21:05:00.002+08:00

It is sad how pessimism and fear creeps in and eats deep into our soul. It is depressing how disappointment seeps into our heart and creates walls between loved ones. It is, however, comforting how the Lord promises not a life devoid of pain, but a life of pain that he will deliver us from.

Hold on unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful.

Meizi's Confirmation

2008-07-27T19:41:00.005+08:00

Meizi! Yay! :) we are both now members of Barker Road Methodist Church! :) Congratulations my darling sister! :)

Well after confirmation we went Tony Romas for lunch to celebrate God's goodness and took lotsa photos as usual :) well only uploaded some!

Mr Daddy Ku went looking around for desserts, but we finally went back home to make our OWN FONDUE and had great fellowship together! :)
I love my family! :)

Camp pics!

2008-07-18T23:20:00.003+08:00

VCF FOC!!!
Marianne, me and Lim Hong!
Me and Limmy

Me and Marianne

Pcych FOC!!!

Scary Wilky all made up for MSI aka MI... imagine i had to keep company all night! scary! but the Lord was with me and I had much fun :)

Wilky and Kenneth... depressed student and jap soldier...both dead... :P

Free of Conformity, Full of Christ!

2008-07-18T00:03:00.003+08:00

Just got back from VCF FOC! :)

"Glorify my name" said the Lord to me.

The camp was awesome, not because it was all fun and laughter, but because the Lord was Lord of it all!

So many words to say, but none enough or adequate to describe the Lord's awesomeness and power! Indescribable is the Lord! O how He works in situations that are bleak, and how He makes the impossible possible!

All glory goes to God!

I learnt that irregardless of education, work or marriage, our ultimate goal in every decision and stage in life should ALWAYS be to glorify God!

Praise the Lord most High! Hallelujah! :)

Day 1 to 4

2008-07-11T16:43:00.012+08:00

Panda Dawn and Zhimei on a journey around Hong Kong!
Day 1 pic 1 at the airport!
pic 2 at airport!
Day 2 at Ocean Park! Oooh I love the tix! Recognise the hand? mine :)
the dolphins look so real! i look so preeeetty...muahaha

ring a ring around the dolphins!
photo taken outside the entrance and thank God it stopped raining! :)
oh dear im the same height as the kids... i wonder why they werent at school but playing clowns at Ocean Park?
Act cute dawn
Looking pale... cos I just finished the giddy ride behind me!

dawn the mermaid twin?
Abyss - the view
Abyss - the seat
Abyss - the REALITY!!! eeeeek so scary i screamed my lungs out! ask zhimei...her ears suffered :P
do i look like a seal? nah...im too white to be one

our bill for NEWAY!
hmmmz wonder which song i was singing so intently?
wat kinda look is that??
the prettiest photo of Zhimei and myself!
I love the private toilet we had!!! made FULL use of it manz...

rock star??
drinking ice lemon tea
thumbs up!
hugging the tv with some unknown song being played
Sushi sushi yum yum but expensive cos the half price queue at 10pm too late for us :( but the food was shiok!

Peak tram!
Oooh i love the piano...it plays Jay chou's songs the moment u touch any key!
I so wanted to try on one of the gowns in the dressing room to pose, but the thought of a million pple trying it on before put me off :P

spot the dawn ku!
acting cool...with MY andy lau! Leo Ku! My brother! Haha he was the most realistic looking wax figurine!
Indi's hand around my waist... sure wont be in danger ;P
The lovely breeze and view at the peak lifted my spirits amidst the negative emotions I was feeling! Had Haagen Dazs to go too! :)

Day 5

2008-07-11T15:47:00.007+08:00

For the first 4 days entries...refer to ZHIMEI's blog :P

This morning, we knew exactly where we were headed off for breakfast! We took the MTR to central then started our hike to this traditional dimsum place for our brunch!

Oh man all the old foggies speaking canto made us really feel out of place! With our half past six canto we made a few unsuccessful attempts to order food cos wee didnt understand what the old ladies pushing the dimsum carts around were saying...so we had to personally walk to the old ladies to look see what we wanted to eat :) Thank God last year daddy brought me to America and to a traditional dimsum place before...so not that cultural shock, though it was way crazier and more crowded in Hong Kong!

With our full stomachs, we couldn't ice skate yet, so we went early to City Plaza to walk around before entering the skating rink. The last time i iceskated was on Feb 29...Mr Boey's first time skating...and this time was also Zhimei's first time skating! Although Zhimei didnt dare to go too fast, she picked it up pretty fast and she was not bad at all! :)

photo taken after our skating time was over...
me showing my nice black jeans off! haha :)
Zhimei trying to balance with one leg!
Me trying to look pro, though i wasn't even in motion!
Zhimei looking a little stiff cos she was so afraid she couldnt balance on ice, though she did a perfect job at it! :)

After the most fun time we had ice skating, we decided to go back for the last time to 女人街 to do our last minute shopping! Yay I finally bought my MANY pairs of stockings that Zhimei was shocked about! hehe then we had our lovely 许留山desert for the last time. I had mango triple delight while Zhimei had bird's nest egg white! yummy yummy :)

Last night in Hong Kong... so sad...but at least we managed to try out everything we planned for! :) Thanks to Zhimei's wonderful itinerary!

In a Flash

2008-06-29T22:40:00.002+08:00

In a flash June has come and gone :(

More activities coming up again...as usual... busy dawnie bee... But im looking foward to S&S to just rest in the presence of the Lord! :)

1-3 July --- Psych camp

4-6 July --- Silence and Solitude

14-17 July --- VCF camp

30July-8th Aug --- Brisbane, Australia

11Aug --- School reopens!!!

So many changes coming up...still i take one step at a time, slowly but surely, with my Lord leading me every step of the way i move onward! :)

June

2008-06-09T23:12:00.003+08:00

The month of June has always connotated the holidays for me. This June, things are different, in a good way :)

The past one week of interning at SGH has been an amazing time of learning about swallowing problems, about speech therapy as a whole. One week just flew by so fast! Only 3 more weeks to go! :( Praise the Lord for His grace and provision of this opportunity to intern at SGH as a 语言治疗师 :) I am one more step surer that this is where the Lord wants me to be!

The weekend was spent at PJC for ACID camp... YCK MINDS :) Well short it may have been, quickly friendships formed. Not just friendship with the trainees, more importantly with fellow volunteers :) It's really hard looking after people wth special needs, and no doubt the Lord wants me to depend on Him if I am really convicted of speech therapy as my profession-to-be.

Well... the stars at PJC were not bad...puddles of rainwater were also pretty fun to ride over :P Well it was an awesome weekend :)

Awesome not because I had fun, but awesome because I know that God is the source of my fun :)

Home at last!

2008-05-24T19:54:00.002+08:00

Back from my first trip abroad on my own! Hong Kong was great! Loved all the canto!!! :) These few photos are the only ones i have so far... cos Zhimei has the rest on her camera! We did so many things! Zhimei's itinerary is qualified to be a tour group itinerary! coolala! :) Well I'll say more when i get the the other photos on tuesday!!! :)

Pseudo grad trip to Hong Kong!

2008-05-17T13:27:00.003+08:00

Hong Kong!!! Here I come!!!

Leaving with Zhimei at 10am tmrw... Sorry Sec 4 dears i wont be able to go for lessons tmrw! An irony that Robyn's back from HK then Zhimei and i are going... Though it's only gonna be a short trip of 6D 5N, im gonna be missing you all!!!

No parents!!! No family!!! Not with school!!! Not with church!!!

My first time travelling alone with a friend... Zhimei Tan! We have commited the trip to the Lord and we know that the Lord is our protector! Gotta take all the neccesary precautions and not stay out too late at night though... Well just in case anybody wants to contact me, i'll be uncontactable during the date below! :P

When: 18th (1oam) to 23rd (8pm) May
Where: Hong Kong Shamrock Hotel

Till im back, i'll be missing you all!!! :)

Encouragement to be Faithful

2008-05-17T13:08:00.002+08:00

2 Timothy 1:3-7

3 I thank God, whom I serve, as my forefathers did, with a clear conscience, as night and day I constantly remember you in my prayers.

4 Recalling your tears , I long to see you, so that I may be filled with joy.

5 I have been reminded of your sincere faith, which first lived in your grandmother Lois and in your mother Eunice and, I am persuaded, now lives in you also.

6 For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands.

7 For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and self-discipline (self-control).

8 So do not be ashamed to testify about our Lord, or ashamed of me His prisoner. But join me in suffering for the gospel, by the power of God,

9 who has saved us and called us to a holy life - not because of anything we have done but because of His own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time,

10 but it has now been revealed through the appearing of Christ Jesus, who has destroyed death and has brought life and immortality to light through the gospel!

Amen! our encouragement to be faithful lies not in anything we have done, but because of God's purpose and grace! Therefore we have a spirit of power, love and self-control! We have the freedom in Christ, because we are prisoners of Christ! Thank you Jesus!

Total Dependence on God

2008-05-16T11:11:00.006+08:00

John 15:5 "Apart from me you can do nothing"

The method is never the key to accomplishing God's purposes. The key is your relationship with a Person. If you leave the relationship with God and go after a method or a program, that is spiritual adultery.

Psalm 5:3 "In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation."

Psalm 33:20 "We wait in hope for the Lord; He is our help and our shield."

Isaiah 40:31(KJV) "They that wait upon the Lord/ hope in the Lord(NIV) shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."

Waiting on the Lord is anything but inactive! Why? When you wait, you are shifting the responsibility of the outcome to God - where it belongs.
1. You will be praying with a passion to know Him, His purposes and His ways.
2. You will be watching circumstances and asking God to interpret them by revealing to you His perspective.
3. You will be sharing with other believers to find out what God is saying to them.

Matt 7:7-8 "Ask and it shall be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."

Waiting on the Lord requires us to be ACTIVE in asking, seeking and knocking! Waiting on Him is always worth the wait. His timing and His ways are always right!

~Henry T. Blackaby~

The end is the start of a new beginning

2008-05-08T16:51:00.002+08:00

"Thank you" is everything I want to say to you.

Thank you for everything that you've taught me and that we've learnt together. Although our journey has reached one endpoint, it is the start of a new beginning, of new friendships and new journeys for us.

I believe that when the Lord sends you the one, love so amazing and unconditional will just compel you to give your all for each other! :) May the Lord's love continue to overflow in your life! May the love of Christ that has so amazingly transformed your life continue to encourage and motivate you on! :) Although we grow weary and tired now, I believe the Lord will lift us up on eagle's wings! He is our healer!

I am only a prayer away. My blessings I leave with you, the Lord's favour I wish for you. I wish for you to find that someone to love you for who you are, and for you to love her for who she is. I wish you happiness, but most of all, I wish you love!

exerpt

2008-04-20T16:54:00.000+08:00

The Lord is good. I know you will never give me more than i can bear. All my hurt and pain, thank you for being the Lord who understands! In Experiencing God page 131 the author says that God, you aren't looking for ways to make me "squirm", it's just that whenever i identify a place where i refuse to allow your lordship, you will work in that place, because u are interested in my absolute surrender. Is that why you want me to see that it is by grace and grace alone that anyone can be saved, and that i should never be too sure of myself? I hear you Lord. I know you are telling me that.

Mis-supposition

2008-04-13T17:01:00.002+08:00

When all that you have having been assuming and expecting in life turn out to be false, the question then is - What is the truth?

Truth is a person. Truth is Jesus on the cross. When you wish any other human to meet your expectations, you have made a wrong move. Jesus, the ONLY one who is 100% God and 100% Man, is TRUTH.

Time and time again I fail to look to Jesus. I can't imagine how could David, if he was a "man after God's heart" still fall? Well perhaps cos he didn't have the Holy Spirit? How about the church today? What difference does it make that Christ died on the cross for us who are so unworthy and loves us unconditionally?? A world of a difference.

For through Adam sin entered the world, through Christ we are made alive! Pastor Chew Ming Li spoke today about us being dead in our transgression since the day we were born to this earth. You know dead? Dead means no hope, means no matter what you do, you are surrounded by sin. In Christ, we are made alive! In Christ we are free from the bondages of sin! What an awesome blessing from God! However, we take His grace forgranted and many atimes there isn't transformation in our minds or actions!

Ephesians 2: 1-10 was the key passage for today's sermon.

v.1 - As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins...(we are like in a cess pool)

v.3 - ... Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. (God looks at us and is angry with us)

v. 4 - But because of His great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, (Christ on the cross)

v.5 - made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in our transgressions - it is by grace you have been saved. (for it is by grace we have been saved, through faith, not by ourselves)

So many other things that pastor mentioned, but above all, the most important thing is that Christ Jesus is the only WAY, TRUTH and LIFE!!!

Impasse

2008-04-10T23:34:00.003+08:00

There is no turning back from the decisions we make.

No matter how hard the choice to make, no matter how hard the consequence to bear, I know that the Lord will see us through because we are His beloved children.

This impasse will no longer be, because the Lord will show us a way out. Our God will make the impossible possible! We shall not fear because our Father is here, so very very near!

Indeed the fullness of the Lord's mercy, grace and goodness will never let us go! Hold on. Hold on. Hold on to the promises of the Lord's love that will never fade.

Happy Birthday April babies!

2008-04-06T16:44:00.005+08:00

Happy 16th Birthday JoBok and Claire dears! :) May the Lord continue to guard your friendships with each other and may many more bdaes to come be spent with one another! Keep shining for Christ k! :) Love ya Sec 4s! :) oh and Happy Birthday too Maxine!!!

weekend

2008-03-07T16:46:00.002+08:00

It's friday again!!!

Last sem fridays were free and sleep in days...this sem fridays are so hectic! Sat too! Then Sun! It doesnt feel like the weekend at all :(

This week was a roller coaster. Thank God for sitting next to me in this roller coaster! First I plunged really low, then i went up, then down again... for now, i think im on level ground... taking a rest before the next ride :)

Yea im blogging! But not exactly on the mind-boggling stuff that we just talked about that's bugging me and bubbling in my head la...had the whole drive home to think about it already :P haha

Anyways, im glad the Lord has spoken to the both of us, and well... i'll follow you slowly till the end of this sem k! Then at the end of this sem i'll tell you my decision on which road i'll take! Until then, let's remain hopeful and joyous in the Lord our God!

And yes... my test today is over! Yeah! hehe and i got back my child lang test marks...haha it was good :) well in the eyes of the Lord :)

Busy weekend again! :)

The Leap Year 2008

2008-02-29T23:18:00.002+08:00

Taking a great leap this year! A leap of Faith :)

The Lord's promises are steadfast, unlike that of humans. Although waiting upon the Lord is long and arduous, He moulds me and strengthens me each day, giving me more and more grace each day, that when the day comes, I can take a leap of Faith and follow the plans He has for me :)

Anyways, amidst my busy schedule and tonnes of projects to complete, thank God for the time of fun today :) Went out with sam to iceskate, to get him a new pair of specs and to watch The Leap Years (though we should have watched something else). Had an enjoyable and blessed day today! Daringly did I try my spins right in the middle of the rink and crazily did I enjoy falling down 10 over times :) Hope your knee heals quickly! :)

Yueling's first collage!

2008-02-23T01:17:00.003+08:00

Thanks Yueling dearie for giving me the honour of being the first person to be "collaged"! love ya bestest fren! :)

Happy things!

2008-02-20T21:33:00.002+08:00

From today onwards, this blog will only exist for happy things! :)

Shall stop babbling my sad n emo stuff here! i want all my readers to receive so much joy from the Lord and enjoy the good things with me :)

All my emo stuff shall 搬家 to elsewhere...for my eyes only :)

Happy Valentine's Day!

2008-02-16T20:25:00.000+08:00

Thanks for the all the prezzies and wishes dear friends! :) Thanks Cheryl dear for the lovely note! Thanks Sam for the nice surprise though it wasn't actually a surprise after you told me about it! :P I really made good use of your prezz today dudey! Thanks! :)

Thanks kunie for the day! Enjoyed CJ7, our Jap dinner, shopping for my hairbands, walking T3, buying dark choc, drinking hot choc at starbucks in T2 and melting the dark choc to make our hot choc drink even thicker!
It was really a blessed day ! I love T3's green theme! So serene and nice!

To all who celebrate Vdae: Vdae isn't just a day for lovers or romantic love. It's a day for all who love and are loved! EVERYONE is loved because of the work of the cross that Jesus Christ died for us! EVERYONE can love, because we all have friends and family whom we care about!

I love you dear friends! :)

All to Jesus I Surrender

2008-01-31T19:32:00.000+08:00

It's been so hectic since school started!

All 5 mods im taking require a project! i know it's really hard not to be stressed this sem, but i really wanna surrender everything to the Lord this sem!

Apart from school work, i must say driving to school everyday is super tiring! mummy i really understand all those times u had to fetch me to school and home! thanks mumzie i love u! having extra cell on sat morns and cg n fri cell and 2 services on sun... i really pray that i will have good time management and not to neglect anything!

What more with CNY and Vdae, im gonna be super duper busy and up to my neck with lotsa stuff!

However, i know i dont have to be afraid cos im not alone. I enjoy the presence of the Lord every single moment of my day :) I just have to learn to keep that focus on Him and not to have roving eyes!

What an exciting semester because the Lord has good things in store for me! :)

School Blues

2008-01-17T15:26:00.000+08:00

Back from my US trip and back to school!

Sorry i don't have any photos of the trip cos i lost my camera together with all the photos from the trip :( was really very very upset about being so careless. Well lesson learnt! I never wish to lose anything ever again!

The trip was amazing! I learnt so much more about myself and what it means to be family. I admit im not the perfect daughter or sister, but God's love is what keeps us together. One family of God. In Christ, for Christ.

It's probably my last sem in NUS, and my last lap. I start every sem refreshed, energised and enthusiastic for the 4mths ahead, then i always lose my direction midway. Thankfully, towards the end i'll surrender all my stress to God and He never ever fails to show me that all things are possible with Him!

This sem seems to have a pretty heavy workload for me again, with even more commitments to handle.

Amen to the passage i read this morning as it was from the Lord.

James 1:17 "Every good and perfect gift is from above, from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows."

Indeed my unchanging Father gives me security and the knowledge of His perfect loves comforts me in the midst of the storm!

Home soon!

2008-01-07T15:29:00.000+08:00

Guess wat? Im gonna be home on 9 Jan instead! haha read my flight details wrongly...

12am, 9 Jan tuesday late night!

dont miss me too much i'll be home soon! =)

Missing Home!

2007-12-31T13:03:00.000+08:00

I love it here!

The cold weather is just fantastic! Freezing as it may be, i really love snow. i really do :) i love running in winter, however breathless i may be after that. i love the taste of snow :)

But this isnt home. Home is always best! Don't worry, i will be home soon! :)

Away on holiday!

2007-12-16T01:37:00.000+08:00

Enjoyed the party on saturday!!! yay!

Dearest all, I will be away in USA from Dec 17 - Jan 10!

I won't be contactable via my handphone, so please email me at dawnkuku@yahoo.com.sg if there's anything important or if it's just that you miss me! Muahaha :P

Love ya all! Will be back with lotsa love!

Cya!

Robyn's "Christmas" Party

2007-12-11T12:52:00.000+08:00

To all the Sec 3s who have not replied my email, you can tag my board to confirm if you can make it okie?

14 Dec this Friday, 4.30-11pm at JoBok's house

21 Hillview Ave
Glendale Park
#09-12
(669556)
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2007-11-19T19:55:00.000+08:00

Distractions and more distractions. exam time. everyone's mugging and here i am blogging. haha...too many random thoughts in my mind i guess...decided to blog them all out! =)

You know how it is when exams come, different people have different expectations of themselves and their grades. how dangerous it is, however, when our expectations of ourselves are so often subtly shaped by others' expectations of ourselves. satan's way of making us feel like failures, is to use the world's pressure and expectations of us to force us to conform. the Lord promises otherwise. the Lord calls us to take on His yoke, and comforts us that there is no condemnation in Christ! how awesome are the Lord's promises which He never fails to keep!

How silly we are to keep comparing ourselves with others of this world when our treasures are of another world, a more beautiful and eternal one! i remember during cg a few thursday back, a cg mate shared with the group about how she would start off the day centred with Christ, assured by His promises, but at the end of a normal school day in NUS, she'd be jaded by the world's opinions and 'feel fat'. how impossible it is for us by our own strength to live the abundant life! YET the Lord is faithful and once again, we are called to surrender our all to Him.

Today, i realised my approach to encouraging people hasn't been all that perfect. i also realised that the style i need to learn to encourage with is what most people need. and that includes myself.

Encouragement isn't solving or trying to find solutions to a person's problems. neither is it bugging a person non-stop with 'advice' that the person most probably knows anyway. it isn't talking non-stop beside a person when he or she is troubled. it isn't just about spitting out Bible verses that just seem encouraging to you. it definitely isn't using reverse psychology to try to motivate the person, because more often then not, you are more likely to discourage the person (unless the person is like super duper strong-willed and bochap you). most importantly, it is not acting like you know better.

On the contrary, encouragement is listening. being quiet. it is letting the person air all his feelings and emotions instead of saying "you should or should not______". it is praying for the person and believing that God will take the best care of him or her. it is loving the person for who he or she is, before judging the action. it is telling the person "results don't matter. it isn't the endpoint, but the process of learning that matters". it is affirming the person that we all make mistakes, but there is no more condemnation in Christ Jesus (for non-believers, we can still affirm them of their qualities and abilities).

Last random (or not so random) thought... stress is positive, but not when it turns into anxiousness, worry, or even depression. thank God. i think im learning more and more, how to experience positive stress this sem. for a moment, i was letting others' expectations (or what i thought them to be) affect me, letting it get me all unhappy, unsatisfied with what the Lord gave me and so distracted that i can't even get down to studying productively.

Rambled on enough, and i know what i have to do. i just love rambling here :) it makes me feel great, determined and sure of God's promise. he will never give me second best.

Do me a favour? this time after reading my blog post, try being silent. there's no need to comment. your listening ear (or reading eye for that matter) was more than enough :) of course remember me in prayer too! that is the greatest encouragement that i need for now.

Off to studying now! :)

For Who I Am

2007-11-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

Shortcomings. yep everyone has them. we don't like to admit them to other people however. don't you agree? it makes us vulnerable, makes us feel unworthy. but that's a lie. because Christ died for sinners such as us. so unworthy and undeserving of His love that He freely gives! we live in a fallen world where sin prevails although salvation is free for all.

My shortcoming?well one of it's j_ _ _ _ _ _ __ . yep im human. i don't want to be vulnerable to the world either. in front of my Lord it's a different scenario altogether. infront of Him, i can cry, i can scream, i can question, most of all, i can bare my heart. im unashamed in front of my Lord who knows me and loves me for who i am. inside and out. i see so many things happening to people around me, i compare. i hate to compare, but i still do. i feel so awful and so hypocritical, yet i know that the Lord loves me for who i am, and He loves another person for who that person is too.

Humans are such wretched creatures. after all the grace they are shown by the Lord Jesus, they turn around and don't show grace to their fellow humans. yet Jesus forgives and loves all the same. how amazing is our God!

Nope this isn't an emo or a confused post. it's a humanly post. human to the very core. with sin. yet Godly in Spirit. with love. Thank you for loving me for who i am my Lord.

Happy Bdae Terence!

2007-11-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

One year older! Had a great day at the airport with Terence =) My first official study day for the upcoming exams!

Terence don't stress k! By the grace of our Lord i'm sure you will overcome algebra and calculus just fine!!! Look foward to your mission trip and go sit for your papers with joy! =) 加油喔!

Love you Sec 3s!

2007-11-05T18:46:00.000+08:00

Hey Jiaps! Thanks for the lovely decorated pink board filled with all you guys and gals' encouragements and well wishes! Thanks Kara, Wei En, Abraham, Justin, and all you other darlings for the thick chocolate mud cake! My greatest pleasure to be teaching the Sec 3 class cos you all rock! :)

Chugging Along

2007-11-03T19:57:00.000+08:00

It's nearing examinations and I still have 2 essays and 1 test to prepare for. Baaah.

Can't seem to concentrate on my work this sem. So many things bugging my head. Surprisingly I'm not all stressed up as I was in the past.

Haha I think being 21 has alot to thank for? Contradictingly, being 21 means that I'm expected to carry heavier loads. These few weeks I have been thinking alot about my needs and my wants. i realised that my wants aren't my needs and my needs aren't my wants.

Guess that's why I've been stuck in pseudo limbo of late. Not here not there.

God has been great anyhow :) He's the reason I know that things will work out just fine :)

Officially 21!

2007-10-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

I'm officially 21 today!!!!

Such a short time of 24 hours and I experienced so much today! Happy 18th Bdae too my darling Meizi Ria Kuku! =)

Thank you Lord Jesus for blessing my 21st Bdae in so many ways!

And for my dear frens who can't wait to hear about how my birthday went...

1. Watched the sunrise for the first time ever - dawn of a new Dawn (Thanks Kun for spending the night baking my bdae cake for me and waking up so early to fetch me! Also, thanks Sam for staying up till 3 am to pray for the rain to stop, without which I couldn't have enjoyed dawn!)

2. Went to Bedok Reservoir Road to try out an Adventure Craze! Super exhilarating! Thanks to Mr Planner! =) And thanks Glenn for calling me to wish me! (even if it was cos I told u abt it! =P)

3. Received the loveliest balloon which said "Happy Birthday Princess" - Thanks Cheryl darling!

4. Received a super cute milk bottle and other items - Thanks Minrui dearest!

5. Entered phonology class late, with cheryl's attention-grabbing balloon, and was greeted with a bouquet of 5 purple tulips sitting on the chair waiting for me!!! (note that this is point 5 too! Thanks Sam for the surprise and efforts and thoughts!) After which i received Zhi yang and Samantha's lovely sunshine bookmark!

6. Was driven home and had a really good rest on my way back! Thanks Kun!

7. Had the most FABULOUS and breath-taking night at Laguna Fuurin Jap restaurant with the Kukus! Took many crazy photos with mum and dad and meizi and daisy! I love you my dearest family!

Such a short day filled with so many unforgettable events! I will remember all 7 events! 7 = Perfection. I had the most PERFECT 21st Bdae! Thank you everyone! Love ya all!

Most of all, thank you Lord Jesus for protecting this day!

Birthday Fun!

2007-10-20T23:57:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Dawn and Ria! :)

Thank God for making our party a success! Without God, we wouldnt have gotten the Lounge early, without Him, Yue Ling's cramps would have been too bad and unbearable for her to enjoy herself. Most of all, without the Lord, everyone would not have had so much fun!

Secondly, thank you dear Markie and Mellie!!! My loveliest cousins! My great MCs! Without your spontaneous hosting and fabulous game mastering, the party would not be so fun and enjoyable! Love ya darlings!

To mummy and daddy and my meizi! I thank God for giving me you! You are my best (and only) beloved family!

And to ALL my dearest frens who graced my party with your presence, I LOVE YOU ALL! So many of you to name, so I shant name, but I wanna specially thank a few!

Terence! Thanks for playing the guitar and singing so wonderfully in Jesus name!

Yue Ling! Thanks for being my bestest friend and helping me with the Disney Deco!

Steff and Yu Li! Thanks for helping me blow AND burst the balloons! Without you both I don't know what to do! Didn't manage to catch up much with you 2, but im so touched by your presence! =)

NUS peeps! You guys had fun I noe! Taking photos of each other...with my camera too! Haha love you all! =)

Kunie! Thanks for the speech!

To all my church frens! You gals are beautiful and shine so brightly like stars in the universe!

Last but not least, Uncle Peng Sum, Uncle Eddy and family, thank you soooooo much for your prayers and uplifting encouragements! May our families grow old together and spend MANY more 21sts! =)

Post YMLC Nostalgia :)

2007-10-10T22:26:00.000+08:00

I love my YMLC group! You guys were lovely! Thanks Andy for making the group share, allowing us to open up with each other and bond beyond the years! =) Praying for you all when I think of you! =)

Right. The guys were already kneeling down and I wasn't any much taller. Manz.
Haiz. How come our group guys are so tall??? Not that I'm small, though I know I am, but you guys are toooooo tall la! Aiyo!
Slippers match...
FEET! =) Guess which one's mine? No prizes for the right guess though. LOL.
Manz... The holidays fly past too fast! lol Oh well that's life. I prefer swimming to flying though. I wish I were a mermaid =) So random. heeheez...

Study hard everybody! Cos Jesus loves you! I love you too! =)

with a smile

2007-10-09T00:09:00.000+08:00

I realised my posts have been swinging on 2 extremes like super drastically and suddenly of late.

Nope. I'm not melancholic. Neither am I grumbling for the sake of letting the whole world hear my frustrations.

Nope. I'm not depressed. Neither am I angry with God or the slightest bit like it.

I'm just being true to myself. Frank. When I'm happy I laugh. When I'm sad I cry, with a smile.

My posts swing along with my mood, with my physical and emotional weakness. But. My soul is never depressed, never anguished, never in despair.

I know my Lord has loved me, is loving me, and continually loves me! His perfect love for me (and you) shown on the cross gives me the strength and the hope for tomorrow!

My dear friends, there's no need to suppress your feelings and emotions just to pacify your family and friends. Show it! Feel it!

Then choose to declare the Lord's promises and choose to carry on, with a smile. A smile that comes from the truth that Jesus loves you. =)

Adding on

2007-10-07T15:01:00.001+08:00

Roar. After my Genes and Society test yesterday I came down with a really bad gastric pain that wasted away my whole Saturday!

So weird. I have a cough. So I dread eating, cos eating causes phlegm! Then I come down with gastric pain cos my stomach acid's acting on the stomach walls. Then I eat more. Then I cough more. Then I take cough medicine. Then my nose gets blocked... etc...never ending story...

BUT!!! I will not let my circumstances nor the pain that the devil has inflicted on me let me lose faith! Yes God is my healer and His love for me has been made perfect by Christ Jesus' death on the cross and His resurrection!

Rejoice in the Lord always and again I say rejoice!

I'm in pain but I know that my Lord gives me the strength and grace and He will see me through!

Romans 8! I am more than a Conqueror! Amen! =)

oh dear

2007-10-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

From sore throat, to cough, back to sore throat from coughing too much, and finally - blocked nose.

Oh dear... keep me in prayer dear frens! My immune system has been poor of late... all thanks to my lack of self-control.

Self-contol, here I come! oh I embrace you! teach me to be like you oh Self-control!

Apologetic

2007-09-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

Sorry I sounded so angry. Don't know why I've been so short tempered with my folks of late.

Went to the Lord in shame.

1 Corinthians 13:4-5
" Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs."

The words in bold spoke deep into my soul. I don't think Jesus ever flared up with his folks. No matter how upsetting they may have been, LOVE never fails.

I'm really sorry I flipped. I promise I will love!

Flipped

2007-09-28T21:20:00.000+08:00

He's so selfish. He never cares about how we feel. WE can suffer, never mind. Then when we ask HIM to sacrifice a bit, he doesn't want. Never considers the loss everyone else has to go through just so that he can have his way. Irritating!!! Throw it away!!!!!!!! Roar.

Strangely Warm

2007-09-28T20:03:00.000+08:00

No particular reason for the title, just feeling warm =)

God never fails to warm my heart. In the midst of uncertainty and pressure, God never fails to assure and comfort me.

Well if my previous post was a post that made me seem confused, this post is the opposite. I know my God is with me =)

左右为难

2007-09-25T00:58:00.000+08:00

救命啊! 我的处境真是让人左右为难, 不知如何是好啊!

我不是犹豫不决, 而是烦恼着如何让你明白我的心! 我的心还未找到那个能让我向他敞开心胸, 和他共度一生的人! 好懊恼, 好烦心. 不要给我压力, 不要逼我作出我会后悔的决定. 因为我知道时间一定会证明一切, 我愿意等. 让我们放慢脚步, 让圣灵教我们如何走下去. 好吗?

我好庆幸这条路不是我们得自己走下去的! 耶酥,我们的拯救者是我们的道! 我相信他有着更完美的安排等着我们! 耐心地陪我等下去好吗? 当我心里有了答案, 我答应你我一定会好好给你个交代!

My dear friends, let us not look to the left or to the right, but let us fix our eyes on the prize set before us, and press on towards this goal for which God has called us heavenward in Christ Jesus! 加油!

UNlimited POWER

2007-09-13T12:26:00.000+08:00

YMLC 2007! Come and gone =(

UNlimited POWER from God? Everlasting!

So blessed and refreshed by this year's Young Methodist Leader's Conference and it was JUST what God knew I needed!

I wanna be like Elisha, who told God that he would not go where the Lord was not present. I wanna be like him, who dared to ask God to give him double the portion of blessings that Elijah his teacher had. I want the anointing of God to fall upon me! I don't wanna run on my on battery cell anymore! It runs dry and flat, but my power charger, the Lord my God strengthens me!

For Isaiah 40:30-31 says,
" Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
But those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint"

Busy Buzy

2007-08-25T01:05:00.000+08:00

Yep. BuZ BuZ BuZ.

It's been 2 weeks into school and almost 2 weeks since I last posted, so here goes =)

Alright. I admit I've been on the phone alot. So that takes up at least an hour a day? Eh maybe 2? I seem to miss gatherings, miss meetings and even miss cell so often that people have this concept that I'm a really busy and hardworking person. Eh well I make sure I read up before lectures and clarify doubts after lectures, but somehow I don't consider myself hardworking enough also. Must be TELEVISION. Hmmz.

24 hours = 1 day

I spend alota 24 hrs just busy buzzing and sleeping lots therafter. Excusable? Whatever.

Been drving to school everday for the past 2 weeks and all I can say is that I really truly understand now how tough it must have been for mummy to fetch sis and I everywhere for the past 20 years of my life! Thanks mummy! I love you!

Enough about the mundane life.

I thank God for the past few Saturday nights where we have family bible study together! We are now doing the book "Experiencing God: Knowing and Doing the Will of God" and by tmrw night, we would have successfully covered Topic 1 (5 days). Since there are 12 topics, the book will last us 1 year, where we try to cover 1 Topic every month, spreading out the 5 days worth of discussion material over 3 or 4 Sats.

So cool rite? Family cell! I tell you. Every Sat without fail, before our cell session, we would experience Spiritual Warfare and somehow we would start off with tension and someone would be upset with another. HOWEVER, by God's grace, we always end up refreshed and happy, and the week ahead so blessed! I'm leading tmrw's cell session, and I know it'll be an amazing time of tuning into God's Word!

Get behind me Satan! Jesus lives in me and my family!

Hallelujah!!! =)

Picture Post Part 2

2007-08-10T21:56:00.000+08:00

2 free freshwater pearls from the Bird Park trip!

Oooh more pics!!!

Liza's Babies!!!! Twins! Allison and Zachary! Zachary! Oh so sweet little darling! So guai let me carry for 20min somemore! OOOOh!

Went to the Bird Park after goodness knows how long! Wow ther place looks so different! Didnt take photos of owls, but they were my favourite! Had so much fun playing "count then owls" game! LoL

Hey Sam! Our photos at the Bird Park are finally up! =) I like the waterfalls! So serene! =)

Picture post!

2007-08-10T00:10:00.000+08:00

Family Time at Phuket! In June!

ACS International Celefest! My pretty Supergal Meizi! =)

31st May we went escape theme park and slacked alot! Haha dinner was FILLING manz!

Yueling and I went to East Coast park and took tonnes of photos! =)

Then it was emily's 21st!

ok i looked abit underdressed

okok dun ask me what we were trying to mimick =P

Yueling's 21st birthday party!

Heart Attack

2007-08-07T20:07:00.000+08:00

Sunday. Monday. Tuesday.

Heart Attack!!!

If it weren't the holidays now, I'd probably be too focused on studying to care about the other things that go on around me! The usual... oblivious but happy Dawn. Yep.

Well, it's the hols, and JUST before school starts, I gotta face the things I gotta face.

Hey YOU and YOU! I just wanna say that I'm very thankful for your frankness and openness with me! Although things may not have turned out the way we want them to be, or it may seem that we have endless valleys to face, I pray for the courage for all of us to keep on trusting that God has better plans for us! =)

Jeremiah 29:11-13a says,
"'For I know the plan I have for you,' says the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.'"
"THEN, you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you."
"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
"' I will be found by you,' declares the Lord"

Hey you 2! Just keep trusting the Lord cos He is in control! Don't worry, cos tmrw will worry for itself says the Lord! I'm scared about the future too, but the Lord beckons us to live by faith, not by sight. Hard. Definitely. BUT, the Lord is faithful and will remember His promise to us!!!

So... don't fear k, for the Lord is near! *big grin*

Heart Attack?!

The 3rd thing that sent my heart racing and my brain freezing. Bumped into TY at vivocity today. TWICE somemore!

Waved at him and thank God he waved back!! Imagine if he had ignored me, I'd have been super sianz! I mean, I really don't like the feeling of someone hating me. Do you?

Then, just as I was wondering if I would see him again, I did! But I didn't dare to let him know I saw him, cos I just didn't know how to react! I couldn't possibly wave to him again?! I almost wanted to ask him something silly like "what are you doing here?" when he was surrounded by freshies in the flag shirt! Hahaha that would have been too lame and "duh" manz!

Well. Sat down for a drink at Food Republic and got myself into another overwhelming conversation. Well, one of the YOU above refers to you. Haha. Don't worry too much about things, cos I believe with all my heart that our God is SO AMAZING and He has everything in control!

Heart Attack.

Not really. I'm still alive! Haha cos God's guarding my heart and He won't let me take on more than I can bear!
I love my Jesus! =)

Can't happy people complain?!

2007-08-06T00:06:00.000+08:00

Went Kbox @ Marina Square after Holy Communion with the family today! Been a long time since we last went karaoke together just the 4 of us! Well today was awesome =)

Kbox. The service is bad. Bad. They serve u lunch super late AND disallow you from eating outside food. They ask u to pay for the bill an hour before the actual ending time. They disturb you MULTIPLE times from your singing and waste your precious singing time.

11am - 2pm
Lunch at 12.30pm
Billed at 1.15pm
Chased at 1.55pm

Among all that, those lousy kbox peeps who can't speak English don't know what "coffee" and "2 packs of sugar" means. They think we are asking for the bill. Baaah.

Well that's for the complains I have. The happy side is that FaMily POweR rocks manz. I love my mummy. She'll stand up for me anytime anywhere anyhow. When we stand united, no one can divide us! Hah! We have Jesus! =)

Someone told me that Singaporeans love to complain, especially about our service sector. Too much at that. Well to rectify what was said, it was also added that it's probably understandable, cos Singapore's service sector is really not up to standard. So is that a compliment or a snide remark? Hmmz up to you to decide I guess.

Well no one likes to be the object of complains, I definitely agree. But when one is upset and needs to let off steam, or to stand up for loved ones, can't we be shown grace and just be allowed to complain?

Argh. Frustrating.

Haha sorry im droning on and on. So not Dawn eh? Well, gimme a break yea?

Frequency

2007-08-04T19:40:00.000+08:00

I know I haven't been blogging very often the past few times... Now that school's reopening I'm trying to rush with more posts to make up for it ok?

I realised my tagboard is always pretty dead =( I wonder if anybody really reads my blog? Sob Sob...

Okok I'm being emo. Enough of that. Haven't changed my blogskin in ages. That's just me. Afraid of changes, comfortable with the present. Scared of moving on.

Nah. I know I have to move on when it's time. So peeps, gimme more support yah?

FOP!!! 3-5th August 7.30pm

2007-08-04T00:20:00.001+08:00

FOP a.k.a. Festival of Praise!

Just came back from FOP and the message for the night was to give thanks to the Lord at ALL times and be joyous in all occasions!

All glory must go to the Lord, not because He is egoistic or a selfish God, but because He knew that in every man's heart, the only thing that would make us whole is to be able to look at creation with awe and thanksgiving to an almighty King!

Brothers and sisters in Christ, don't you feel so happy when you are able to thank the Lord? Don't you feel that joy abounding and happiness overflowing?

Tonight, I really did =)

For those who wanna enjoy the presence of the Lord like I did tonight, it's not too late! There's FOP SAT and SUN night too!

FOP
- 7.30pm (gates open at 6.30pm) to 10.30pm
- Delirious? and Don Moen!

GOGOGO! it's not too late for you to enjoy worshipping the Lord our God! =)

Debit!

2007-08-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

Spent more than $100 today!

On one hand I felt really awful for spending so much $ at one go, on the other hand it was a good feeling to have bought the things I like :)

However, I see that I really gota start being more decisive and maximise my efficiency!

Dear me... I hate choosing! Choices stress me up.

29th July 2007

2007-07-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

Yay! 29th July!

My Baptism Confirmation and Church Membership in the morning, then had dinner and watched the musical "Love Above All" by Mt Carmel BP church on Jim and Elisabeth Elliot at night!

The day was just super memorable! =)

Thank you mummy and daddy for baptising me as an infant! Dedicating me to the Lord was the best choice you made, as I have grown up in Christ-likeness and have decided to do likewise for my children too! =) What a happy day! I have affirmed my parents' decision and confirmed my personal faith!

The evening was a rather emotional one... Beginning with...

Dinner! It was a super rushed one at Holland V Crystal Jade with Kuner, yet a super enjoyable one! Why? Cos before that we were going through me baby photos and almost forgot I had to take time to doll up before we could leave! haha well we ate a mighty lot and was super full! =)

We drove to NUS UCC for the musical and we thought we were late, but thank God we made it in time not to miss anything! I was amazed at how well-done the musical was done, especially for a local church production! There were so many times in the musical I felt like crying, but the Kuner beside me was worse than me! hahaha his eyes were like a running tap everytime the song "He is no fool" was sung. Well the song lyrics and tune were ultra moving!

He is no fool
Who gives what he cannot keep
To gain what he cannot lose

What if I gain the world and all it's worth
And lose my soul in exchange?
I'd be a fool to lose it all
For what will soon pass away.
I have one life, one life to live,
So help me Lord, to wisely choose

He was no fool who gave his life on the cross,
Who died the world to redeem.
He paid my debt and set me free
And now I am no more my own.
No greater love could claim my life,
To give my all I gladly choose,
To give my all I gladly choose.

~ Jim Elliot
"He is no Fool"

This song just manages to tug at the heart strings of everyone who hear it! Amazing! How true it is! Well for me, I was the most emotional during the song sung by Elisabeth Elliot...haha it was a song sung out of a heart longing for love.. I loved the last few verses which went...

When will my prince appear,
And when will he come?
Riding across the skies
To the beat of a distant drum
I thought I almost saw his face,
but he was gone without a trace.

All through the years
I waited patiently to meet him,
My heart an open door
I longed each day to greet him.

Now I'm grown,
the years have made me wiser;
Love is more than
wishing on the stars above.

God is love,
and love's a gift he's planted
In the hearts of those who
pledge themselves in love.
My prince will come,
whenever God sets the time.
Hearts will beat as one,
like verses in rhyme.

Oh Lord you know me and my place,
You plan it all in wondrous ways.
Whoever is your choice for me,
You already know his face.
Yes, you have seen his face.

~ Elisabeth Elliot
"Betty's Song"

Emotional was the word to describe the musical! Love Above All. Love. Can we love like God did? Like Jesus did? Like Jim and Elisabeth Elliot did? To love even those who murdered our loved ones?

It was a shocking awakening for me to question my own love, to see if it was love above all else, or selfish love.

Well it was a blissful night however! =) heh HAAGEN DAZ Belgium Chocolate ice cream for our supper! Ate it in the car with Kuner driving at tortoise speed at 45km/hr on PIE!!! Goodness I think if there was a camera to catch those road hoggers, Kuner'd beat the record. Manz.

Reached home happy and all smiles! AND then that night took another emotional turn...an emotional dip rather.. haiz.. all the ice cream's fault =( it would have been less problematic if we had eaten BEN & JERRY's *evil laughter* cos they dun have an extra plastic covering, which makes it less messy to eat in the car.

Anyways, lessons learnt that night... someone's gotta learn to write essays with proper conclusions next time, and someone else's gotta learn to be more frank and less nice in future! Hah! =P

Emotional day manz. Happy. Tired. Upset. Excited. Worried. Touched. Awakened. Blissful. Angry. Playful. Forgiving. Sleepy.

Unforgettable Day.

Happy Bunny!

2007-07-24T01:53:00.000+08:00

Happy!
I am so happy!

I have a destiny,
I know I shall fulfill.
I have a destiny,
According to Your will.
I have a destiny,
And it's not an empty wish.
For I know,
I was born,
For such a time,
As this.

NOW is the time to make a difference in this world where we were placed. We were predestined long before the ages to be the children of God, and ALL are welcome into the Kingdom of heaven!

My destiny is IN CHRIST! So is yours... if you so choose it today!

Gone

2007-06-25T16:00:00.000+08:00

When the leaves fall
and autumn approaches,
spring is gone.
When the sun sets
and night beckons,
daytime is gone.

When the skies clear
and light shines throught the clouds,
rain is gone.
When tears dry up
and songs of laughter is heard,
pain is gone.

When children
leave the comfort of schooling,
innocence is gone.
When white hair
cover the head,
youth is gone.

When time
separates 2 people from each other,
closeness is gone.
When noise sets in,
memory weakens and people forget,
is friendship gone?

I say when noise disturbs,
memory fails, and people grow old,
true friendship lasts a lifetime!
Friendship beats in the hearts
of those who hold on.
Hold on.
Loneliness is gone.

Spider-Man III

2007-06-04T01:23:00.000+08:00

" Whatever comes our way,
whatever battle rages inside us,
we always have a choice.
It's our choices which
make us who we are,
and we always have the choice
to do the right thing!"
- Peter Parker

Watched Spider-Man the 2nd time today at vivocity with my family! Finally managed to record down the wise words of our all-time favourite super hero!

Indeed we ALWAYS have the choice to do the right thing, no matter how tough the situation, or how hard the struggle we face! It is exactly God's desire for us to choose to accept Jesus Christ as our Lord and Saviour!

How many a times we blame God for the bad things that happen to us, yet we only have ourselves to blame, because the Father gives us FREE WILL and CHOICE to do what is right in His eyes!

Black=Black and White=White. Although the world teaches us that circumstances allow grey areas, there is no such thing. Where there is light, there is no darkness. Where there is righteousness, there is NO leeway for sin!

PASSED!

2007-05-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

By the grace of God, I finally passed my driving test today!

So much $$ spent on driving lessons, but the process was soooo worth it! =)

I'm not gonna take the grace of God lightly! I'm gonna lighten mummy's driving load! Most importantly, I'm gonna be a safe driver! =)

I'm so so so thankful! Thanks Terence, Cheryl, Sam, Kun... Mummy, Daddy and Meizi for praying for me!!! Not forgetting Choon and many others who have given me their moral support, you are very much appreciated!

Love ya all! =)

Holiday Fever

2007-05-12T13:11:00.000+08:00

Almost 2 weeks since exams have been over! The month of May sees me packed with driving lessons and church membership classes. Holidays are the best times of the year! SO much time to reflect...TOO much time to think about my life and what I wanna do with it.

The only thing that I'm certain of, is that my life isn't for me to worry about. God's in control of everything that happens =)

Happy Birthday Madeline Darling!

2007-04-30T18:39:00.000+08:00

A blessed 13th year Maddy dear! =) love ya lots!

Light in the Darkness

2007-03-18T19:47:00.000+08:00

1 John 1: 5-7 "This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. But if we walk in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his son, purifies us from all sin."

Sec 1- 3 Camp 2007, 14th-16th March. Light in the Darkness.

God was amazing in ALL aspects of the camp! Be it in relationships and communication with fellow workers in Christ, or between leaders and campers, the Lord taught us all to solve conflicts in a Christ-like manner and we all learnt!

Thank God for the salvation of Audrey and other campers =) Thank God for giving me the opportunity to pray for Mong Yi and Abby as well =)

Of course, Abraham, Min, Max, Jiap, Claire, Kara, Nic, Justin, Josephine, Lionel, Weisheng, Wei En, and ALL the others in planning comm, I'm so proud of you guys =)

Love ya all! Keep shining for Christ! =)

The Week

2007-01-28T00:29:00.000+08:00

This week was hectic!

Did so many rps this week, did assignments, did readings and although today was equally tiring, I really had a blessed time =)

Went lunch with Guo Jun, then went bowling with SK, last of all, went church for the YSS Leader's Meeting. The weather was really wet and pretty dreary. However, thank God for seeing me through the day and helping me enjoy such fun!

Lunch at Spageddies was not bad! The spaghetti meat sauce was reasonably sumptious =)

Bowling was even more fun! Haven't bowled in ages manz! Played 3 games, got 80+, then 93, then the last game, which ended nicely with 106 =) haha not bad huh! SK beat me with 112 in the last game..haha although i beat him only marginally in the first 2 games =P oh well i guess my max potential is pretty low, as usual =P It was a breathtaking time of exercising our right hands and left legs though! (those who bowl would know why)

YSS Leader's meeting was amazing. With Ryan taking over Ben as 8.30 Sup, YSS is gonna continue bearing fruit and AMEN to that! I really need to spend more time praying for the sec 3 class cos they are a bunch of flowers just waiting to bloom! All they need is constant watering and pruning and TADA, we'll get lovely roses and lilies and hibicus and sunflowers and many more different types of lovely plants! With Justin and Robyn, we are gonna commit the class into the Lord's hands!

Blessed 21st Birthday Meixuan!

2007-01-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy happy blessed 21st birthday away from home my dearest Mei!

Missing ya lots! Take care! =)

Grace

2007-01-01T20:22:00.000+08:00

I have tasted God's grace. His grace is more than sufficient for me!

God's grace is bringing me home safely just before the Bangkok bombing. If we had left just 3 hours later, we might have been caught in the bombings cos our hotel was relatively near the Freedom Monument (arnd which there were some bombs).

God's grace is allowing the family to enjoy our New Year's eve in reflection of the year 2006, to learn more about each other, to work towards adapting to each other's changes in the new year.

God's grace is giving me the best family, although best doesnt mean without flaws. All humans have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. However, together we learn and correct each other, helping each other work towards Christlikeness.

God's grace is providing me with wonderful friends who keep me in constant prayer and remember me even when we dont keep in contact.

God's grace is the very gift of life itself.

I used to hope that I would die soon so that I could escape the ugly world that we live in. I very much hoped that Christ would come again really soon, before I have to die, so that my entire family would be raptured together, painless and gloriously.

Is that still my hope today? Well heaven is definitely by far better than earth. However, that selfish me has learnt that life is granted to me by God so that I can show myself worthy of heaven! Christ himself left the comfort of heaven, to be born on Christmas day, so as to give us the gift of live eternally! Who am I, selfish and demanding to wish to escape from pain?

I am nobody, but in Christ I am somebody. I am special and I am given the sacred task of spreading God's love. His grace, I am to share with the world. His cross, I am to take up and live the life He lived for me. His people, I am to love like He loves, even sinners.

Grace. Undeserving favour.

I apologise for the times I sound condescending, prejudiced and condemning. I am sorry for the times I forget that Christ himself ate with sinners and the least of man. I am sorry for sometimes being like the Pharisee who scorned the tax collector, for Christ did ask in Matt 7:3 about judging others,"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?"

However, I know that Christ also mentioned clearly about hating sin and the world we live in , and being in the world, but not of the world. We are told to hate the sin, not the sinner. Be very clear about what the Bible means by "judging". Judging is different from discernment. We are commanded to discern right from wrong, truth from lies, and good from evil. Condemn the sin, but love the sinner, just as Christ did.

I'm learning, I'm trying. It is hard sometimes to clearly divide the sin from the sinner. Yet, I know I must, for as God has showered His grace upon my family and me, I too am called to be gracious even towards my enemies.

Maybe that's why I kept dreaming of TY and even JC. Not that they were really my enemies or anything, but maybe just cos I have yet to forgive and love them totally? Hmmz distance makes the heart grow further... So true. Further and further away from my memory, my consciousness. How about my subconsious mind? That, I cant be absolutely sure of.

If dreams are a reflection of what we think of in the day, how come I dont seem to dream of the person I wish to dream of? How come the person's image in my mind seems so fuzzy? Could my thoughts be a part of my fantasy and ideal? Maybe I was actually dreaming when I thought I was awake and thinking?

Oops I deviated. But yes, God's grace in my life is immeasurably amazing and overwhelming. All the times I was unsure, was scared, all the times I was unknowing and oblivious, God's hand of protection has never left me.

"The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want."

Thank you Lord, and I praise your Holy name. 2007, your year, your time of revelation.

Memory loss

2006-12-31T21:28:00.000+08:00

Have you ever forgotten about a person, then suddenly your heart starts racing when you see that person again after a long while?

People often say that absence makes the heart grow fonder, but i agree otherwise. The mind is super tricky. It causes temporary memory loss when an object is removed from our sight. With time, one can surprisingly forget certain things.

However, you can never really know how forgotten some things are, until you suddenly bump into them again. Do you get a hazy familiarity or a clear recognition?

How come it's easier for us to miss the people we see everyday and forget about those who were dear to us just because we seldom talk to them anymore? Sad to say, I too am guilty of the charge above. =(

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder" is not an excuse to neglect the friends you love, or to forget about the old just because of the new.

Today is the day! Just drop old friends a simple msg to let them know that they havent been forgotten by you! Everyone needs to be loved, just as everyone should learn to love! =)

A blessed New Year of 2007 to all my dear friends, even to you whom I havent seen in ages!

Men from Venus, Women from Mars Part 2

2006-12-21T00:20:00.000+08:00

"Just follow me. Trust me." This time, we didn't just follow him blindly. We shared the burden of finding out directions.

Although we all made silly mistakes along the way, we remained the four legs of a table, supporting each other and being with each other through our ups and downs. We can choose our friends and spouses but we cant choose our parents or siblings. Whether we like it or not, God has placed each of us in our particular families for a reason. I wouldn't trade my family for the world!

Our trip to Japan was more than the usual holiday trip. It was packed with learning, learning and more learning. Learning wasn't the conventional textbook way, it was through getting on each other's back, yet at the same time show each other how much we love each other. =)

Daddy, thanks for the trip and all that you have done and continue to do for us. Although I find your shoes really hard to fit and walk around in, I tried to wear it all the same. I managed to walk far enough, and comfortably enough =)

It's gonna be hard for all of us to understand each other, since gender differences really cloud out perspectives sometimes. I cant do this on my own, but I know I can, because the Lord is the centre of our family, and the cornerstone of our table =)

Colossians 3. Exactly the verse I needed, and God gave it to me immediately after my first post.

Thanks be to God for always being there to guide, lead and teach us =)

Men from Mars, Women from Venus

2006-12-16T17:49:00.000+08:00

"Just follow me. Trust me." Then we get lost.

What a girl needs isn't just someone who has everything under control, or rather CLAIMS to have everything under control so as to reassure her. She needs someone who INCLUDES her in his life and lets her into his struggles and problems.

I know it is a sweeping statement to say that all guys have big and overt egos, are self-centred and do things for themselves. Well, yes, girls' egos may be equally big, but covert. Yes we are selfless when facing the ones we love yet selfish when protecting our loved ones.

I'm not saying that girls are super good or better than guys, cos both gals and guys have their flaws. I'm just upset that girls are coined "more emotional" and guys "more rational". Is that an excuse for guys to be insensitive?

Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus. Agree?

Yea, only when I walk around in his shoes can I fully empathise from his perspective. But his shoe size doesn't fit me! My shoe size doesnt fit him either! So how? Each of us wear one side of each other's shoe?

Haha I sound like I'm condemning all guys cos of a bad experience with one guy or something. Relax. I'm not. Not all guys are like that. Haha most guys are though =P

Oh well. It's impossible to change the other person and one shouldnt't hope to either. Either you change yourself and accept the other person, or you just give up altogether. In a marriage, the latter is impossible, since a choice has been made, and commitment given. One has just gotta continue praying for the other and holding onto God's grace.

Although the picture of guys that I've painted above seems so black, there definitely are times when they are super sweet and manage to melt girls' hearts. But is that all? Sweetness and all that "I'm giving you the best" crap. Don't actions speak louder than words? Why do their words seem more convincing then than their actions?!

Haha I'm probably gonna get alota rebuttals from all you guys after my seemingly feministic post =P Haha bring it on =)

~ Dawn reporting from Japan

Reporting from Japan

2006-12-15T19:45:00.000+08:00

I cant believe myself...

Keep dreaming about TY recently, not sure why too. I thought I had forgotten about what happened so long ago.

5 days in Japan and I dreamt of TY THREE times... 3 out of 5, that makes it 60% of the time? Really weird, cos that is the LAST person I would ever want to dream of.

Maybe subconsciously I really dun wanna have conflict with anyone, thus end up dreaming of patching up with that person. Super duper weird. Of all things to blog of in Japan, I blog about TY. Oh well, hope he steers clear of my dreams tonight.

Leaving Kyoto back to Tokyo tmrw afternoon! So fast my Japan trip has reached its midpoint! Im sure the next half of it is gonna get better =)

Off to Japan!

2006-12-09T23:34:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! Exams finally over!

Off to Japan from 10th(night)-20th December =)

Be back soon! =)

Dinner at Pan Pacific 16th November

2006-11-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

This dinner was the OCS celebration dinner for the Air Wing =) It was a cool time! =)

Haha as all girls do when they wear nice dresses, TAKE PHOTOS! hehe

Sis took my mirror image... pretty cool

Guo Jun! Accompanied him to his OCS dinner celebration =)

Just wanna say, don't worry I didn't feel outa place or anything, cos I had fun chatting with the other gals and finding out more about the Air Wing from ya =) Take care!

Linnette took a pic of me =)

Linnette and Me
Me and Clara
Zhao Yuan and Me

Post KBox photos 24th October

2006-11-21T22:08:00.000+08:00

Yay! The 3 of us! Choon, Me and Cheryl!

Another photo of ours! Thanks guys for the Birthday celebration! Love ya! =)

Hehe where's Dawn?! I'm the photographer lah duh! lol =P

Cheryl and I singing OUR song! "Friends" by Michael W. Smith! Indeed friends are friends forever if the Lord's the Lord of them! =)

It's Choon and my turn to sing OUR song! hehe 你最珍贵(ni3 zui4 zhen1 gui4) by Jacky Cheung! Haha Cheryl caught us on candid camera there! =P

Cheryl looks so cute! hehehe

Always giving constipated looks when he sings stuff like "真的很受伤" (really very hurt)

What a nice and blessed celebration! =)

Although Yue Ling dearie couldnt meet me on that day for dinner, she gave me my best birthday present EVER yesterday! Watch out for that post when it comes =)

Blessed Birthday Terence!

2006-11-13T00:47:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Terence darling!

Thanks for remembering me on my birthday and for talking to me into the wee hours of the night of my birthday "morning"! (what a mouthful!) =P

May this day be the day where you are affirmed of God's continued presence in your life and the existence of friends around you who care!

God's love is amazing! =)

Happy Birthday Glenn!

2006-11-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

Hohoho! Blessed 23rd Birthday Glenn! =)

Glenn's photography skills are not bad manz!

Hello Dorcas! What did Glenn say? haha why are you threatening him with a glass bottle?! Hmmmz =P

Glenn, stop pretending to eat the wafer cos you really seemed like u were gonna explode with too much food! Muahaha

There we go! The 2 dudes whose fav colours are purple and pink! (dun ask me why I've got a guy fren who wears pink on his birthday anyways)

<<感触>>

2006-11-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

望着那渺茫的天空，我仿佛看到了自己渺茫的前途。

在这霎时间，我的心情好沉重，好沉重。

到底有谁能给予我生命中的答案呢？

为什么做人总是那么难呢？

活着真的那么痛苦吗？

我是否一个人在这世界上打一场孤独的战争呢？

这场战争又是跟谁打的呢？

我思潮起伏，试着从内心深处寻找想找到的答案。

答案呢？答案早就在我眼前。

有一位神，
有权能创造宇宙万物，
也有温柔双手安慰受伤灵魂。
有一位神，
有权柄审判一切罪恶，
也有慈悲体贴人的软弱。
有一位神，
我们的神，
唯一的神，
名叫耶和华(Jehovah)，
有权威荣光，
有恩典慈爱，
是昔在今在永在的神！

忽然之间，我那空虚的心，缭乱的心情，似乎消失得无影无踪了！

我知道无论身在何方，处境有何糟糕，耶稣仍陪伴着我，从不离开我身边半步！感谢神！

现在的我，心情虽然糟透了点儿，但始终不难过到绝望的地步，因为我知道主耶稣会保佑我！

Many Thanks

2006-11-02T13:11:00.000+08:00

Sorry this came so late! But i just have to thank all the sweet people who remembered my 20th Birthday and made it an unforgettable day!

Family:
1. Kus!
2. Markie
3. Mellie
4. Colin

Sec/ JC Friends:
1. Yueling my bestest fren
2. Xiaowei
3. Lynsey darling
4. Steffie
5. Julia sweetie
6. Charmaine Tan!
7. Terence dearie
8. Dominic
9. Ian
10. Gerard

Church:
1. Delia
2. Dorcas
3. Kara
4. Glenn

Last but not the least...NUS frens!
1. Cheryl dearest
2. Kun Kunie!
3. Choon choon
4. Sharon
5. Angela
6. Oliver Oily
7. Samuel
8. Tyler
9. Anna
10. Shi Hui

Hope i didnt miss out anyone who remembered me on my special day =) Love ya all so much!

Happy Birthday Sissy dear!

2006-10-23T03:29:00.000+08:00

Wooooohoooooo im awake at this crazy hour! muahahaha

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to me!
Happy birthday to Dawn and Ria,
Happy Birthday to US! =)

Love ya sis =) Always =) Happy 17th! =)

Mood: Stoning

2006-10-21T20:16:00.000+08:00

Wahaha! Sis and I exchanged presents today! LoL we couldn't wait for Monday to come..cut the cakes and spent the whole day messing around =P

stressed manz! i noe there's a whole lota work due end of Oct, which is only just one week away, yet the whole family is forever so havoc on weekends! haha somemore i dont think i can do much work on mon and tue, since it's CeLeBrAtiOn time! Oh dear...

Hope I finish editing my EL 2151 essay by tonight! jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!

Cuss Words

2006-10-13T18:38:00.000+08:00

Language change mechanisms. Of which, the frequency of a word's usage is one of the mechanisms. Cuss words have constantly been replaced time after time by stronger and more impactful ones.

'shit' used to be a super bad word, but now people freely use it as an adjective to describe almost everything. I used to think (i still do) that 'damn' should never be used, yet i hear it from everyone nowadays. Even my best friends.

Fine, use them as adverbs or adjectives to "decorate" your sentences if you please, but please don't use NOUNS! Cuss words when used as nouns, become naming words. To label someone with "you piece of shit" or "you a_____" or "you b_____" is what I hate to hear the most. It is an attack on one's character, a direct hurt on the person, and a disappointment to the ones you love. It isn't even as bad as being offensive, it just stabs a person in the heart with hurt.

James 3 - Taming the Tongue

v9 With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness.
v10 Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be.
v11 Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring?
v12 My brothers, can a fig tree bear olives or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.

Although I never use cuss words, I believe I have unintentionally said words that have hurt other people too. That, I ask for forgiveness. I have learnt that one must be sensitive to different people and their different tolerant levels. Jokes carried too far can be destructive at times.

However, does it mean that one can never joke? I once said that it's important to " Mean what you say and say what you mean". So does it mean joking is wrong? Or does it mean that there should be a limit to how far one can go? JOKE JOKE JOKE. sianz... how can one be both fun-loving and not be allowed to joke at the same time? Can one use a cuss word as a joke? I think not...

Out of the World

2006-09-27T23:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was super duper thrilling!

Went to East Coast Park to spend the day. It wasn't as simple as it sounds. It was out of the world! =P

First, we took a bus from Taka which was supposed to bring us to East Coast. Heh but we took 14 instead of 16 and ended up at Tanah Merah Station! Took a cab from there. Amazing thing is the taxi uncle was doing his QT while waiting! Then he started sharing with us about how driving the taxi was his ministry... So encouraged by him!

Next, we rollerbladed for 2 hours for 10 bucks per person. Pretty ex man, but the skates were quite good i guess. At least mine was =P hehe havent rollerbladed in years man! Ever since my blades sorta had cranky wheels... It took a lil while to get used to it and very soon i was having a whale of a time! The funny thing was that it suddenly poured for like 1 min and then the rain was gone. like wooosh! so fast! haha thank God though, cos the rain would have spoiled our fun =(

Wah pretty tired after blading, then we rented a bike for 2 hours for 8 bucks. Cycling is so much less tiring! Ermm... u think so? Not exactly. Not when u have to cycle 2 people for a distance of 3-4km in 10 min! It was super tiring and heart pumping! yeah yeah good workout for me huh =P

Something scary happened during our cycling trip =( this Indian fella suddenly popped out of nowhere and asked us to buy drinks. Okay we bought drinks. He spoke to us in Chinese! Okok like wateva. He didn't leave! He sat down behind us and continued staring! I felt so uneasy. We should have left. We didn't =( we took out the Bible and read Psalms. The stupid Indian guy started saying "Ye Su" (Jesus in Chi) dunno what and finally left...like after 15min lah! Even then, he was still staring from a distance for another 5min and i got so freaked i said we better leave. Only then, when I turned around, did I realise that he had disappeared. At last! Grrrr...

After returning the bike, we went to wash up. Hungry! Decided to eat nearby, so we ate at this steamboat place run by 'china'nese people for another 2 hours (everything came in twos!haha) wah super full lah!!! But we still went Gelaros to eat dessert! Goodness me! Ate back everything we worked out! Wahaha =P 2 scoops of icecream and a waffle. Fat. =P

Last but not least, highlight of the day/night, FERRIS WHEEL and MERRY-GO-ROUND!!! Muahahaha these were children-sized mind you! Hahaha I know you all think I blended in alright, but that still was super embarrasing lah! lol. Well, you wanted an Out of the World experience, you get it lah! Muahahaha! I was so daring manz! Haha =P Well it was an ultra hilarious moment of our lives and an unforgettable one too =) hope the embarrassment wasn't too hard too bear =P

Tiring was the day, but entertaining was the night =P

As the saying goes, all good things must come to an end, so here goes...

"No more birthday for you,
No more birthday for you!
No more birthday for you-oo,
No more birthday for you!
Awwww...Too bad!!!"

Hahaha silly meanie me =P

Happy Birthday Kun Kun! =)

2006-09-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to kun kun...
Happy Birthday to yoooou!!!

A blessed 23rd Birthday to the One Smiley Killer, Ong Song Kun! =)

May this day bring you the Lord's joy and wisdom! One year older, one year wiser!!!

Hady Mirza!!!

2006-09-25T23:50:00.000+08:00

Singapore Idol --- HADY MIRZA!!!

Wooohoooo!!! Hady rocks manz! He deserves the title of Spore Idol! His voice is just so charming and mesmerising! Hehe he's the first Spore singer I've really fallen in love with! Hehe =P

You Give Me Wings writen for Spore Idol 06

Bridge
Now you're here, right by my side, don't ever let me go...

Chorus
You give me wings when I'm fallin',
You lift me up when I'm down,
You're taking me higher,
Touching the sky...
Yea you make me...
Fly ah ah ah...

Ooooh I heard Hady sing this song 5 times! Everytime he sang, I just fell deeper and deeper in love with the song! A very inspirational song that won my heart over! hehe *grinning from ear to ear*

The reason why I love this song so much, is really because Hady delivered it with such sincerity and oomph, which really "gave the audience wings to fly" like Dick Lee said! Really uplifts your spirit to know that there are people who are always there for you, doesn't it?=)

Similarly, when we are pray and encourage others, it inspires and motivates them exactly like this song did!

Love is the greatest! If we could infect all our loved ones with the ability to fly and be lifted up, how marvellous would that be?! It would be coolala!!! =)

In addition to the Singapore Idol results, I'm really so thankful to have Terence come over my place tonight =) Hehe you got to see my super crazy side again huh today? =P Hey hey, just wanna say that you are a fren I cherish sooooo much that the importance you hold in my heart will never fade away just cos we seldom keep in contact! True frens are few, that's why I treasure you! =)

Same thing for all my dear frens I get to see like only once in a blue moon! Joanna, Yue Ling, Mei Xuan, Lynsey, Lai Yee, Winny, Cheryl, Shu Yi, Clement, Alvin, and Madeline darling! Even for those unnamed, it's not that I forgot you, it's just that the list could go on and on! The point I wanna make, is that, True frens are few, that's why I treasure it when "You Give Me Wings" and I am ready to be there for you when you need me too =)

Love ya all =)

YMLC 06!

2006-09-12T20:36:00.000+08:00

What an intense weekend at Batam Holiday Inn I had =)

The 3 days of Undying Passion really served to rekindle the fire burning within me and helped to fan the flame of passion in my heart! The sermon styles varied and the speakers had different ways of bringing forth their messages. Won't write out in length the stuff I learnt or it'd be a super long essay =P

Shall summarise it in the theme song,

Undying Passion
Leaving my past,
A new life I take,
Closing my heart,
To every love but Yours,
Love is like a flame,
And it burns like a raging fire,
No flood can put it out,
For its flames will never die...

Oh my heart,
My heart of crimson,
Stained by Your blood.
Oh my heart,
My heart to reason,
That You died for me.

To worship You my Lord,
My life in You I live,
Jesus You, are my Undying Passion!

The word "stained" seems to connotate a sort of "blemish", however I guess the meaning behind stain is "unremovable"? The 4Ds (Delia, Dorcas, Deanne and Dawn) were discussing this over Sat night...It was super hilarious and we even came up with some actions to go with the song (in good humour) Was just wondering if there is another one-syllabic word with a positive connotation to replace "stained"?

Overall, it was a great time of pouring out my heart to God, meeting new friends and catching up with old friends! Was really blessed and refreshed! Ermmm...took home another sore throat, though I dont regret singing my heart out to God =P

In addition, I must complain about Glenn and Luke. Grrrr those 2 horrible people tricked me today!!! Roar I had to scream at them with my sore throat! How nice. Luke. Known him since I was sec 3 and he's still as nonsensical as ever. Grrrr naughty PK (Pastor's Kid). Glenn's worse! known him since 3 days ago only and they dare to use me as THEIR ENTERTAINMENT! Very amusing hor u guys... had a good laugh at my expense? Baaah...

Lol just in case I sounded like I was super angry with them, nah. I wasn't. Super amused by how 2 bored guys can really come up with boliao things to do. Haiz. Guys... Tell me about them...

Off to Batam i go!

2006-09-07T17:11:00.000+08:00

Young Methodist Leader's Conference! 8th Sep (Fri) 7am - 10th Sep (Sun) 7pm

Fun stuff! Didn't go last year cos I didnt wanna miss too many lectures. Though I'm missing my Semantics and Pragmatics lec tmrw, at least it's only one lec, and Delia's missing it too! hehehe

Really anticipating alot from this conference cos it's been pretty long since I last had the chance to sit at Jesus' feet like Mary and just absorb His Word. Been so busy serving and leading (I'm not saying it's bad) that I need some time off to kneel at His throne in humility once again.

"Once again I look upon
the cross where You died,
I'm humbled by Your mercy,
and I'm broken inside.
Once again I thank You,
Once again I pour out my life"

Also, my heart, it's telling me certain things I cant understand. Someone so far away, someone almost forgotten, but that someone appears in my dreams and thoughts. Such is a friend I'm guilty of neglecting =(

I realised that I'm still in search of my direction and path to take. I've still got a long way more ahead of me. I wonder if I'll hear God's answer at YMLC?

Sec 2 Retreat

2006-09-06T16:33:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Wei En, Abraham, who organised the retreat, and to all of you guys and gals who came! Thanks to all the older youth and teachers who popped by to lend a helping hand too! =)

Although it wasnt the best camp, and perhaps it wasnt as good as we had hoped it might be, God was amongst us =)

I can't tell you I wasn't stressed, I can't lie that everything went fine, neither can I pretend I didnt feel that it was my fault the camp wasn't as exciting as last year's. However, I was very thankful all the same that when I started stressing, God sent Ben Tan with a solution. When I started worrying that everything was going wrong, Justin was there. When I felt super horrible that the Sec 2s werent finding the camp as fun as they expected, felt more peaceful after talking to Kun.

In all the thigs Satan made me feel bad about, I have confidence that God is faithful and as long as I've done my best for Him, I shouldn't believe Satan's lie that I havent done enough =) Of course, I could have done better. Well, Im learning and PUSHing (Pray Until Something Happens) =)

2 "moons" or another hoax?

2006-08-30T18:45:00.000+08:00

Sunday was an eventful day. Not because we really managed to see the "2 moons" that was claimed, but that the day was spent memorably =)

In case no one knows what I'm talking about, there was a rumour that Mars came really close to Earth on 28th Aug at 12.30am (Sunday night) which made it seem like there would be 2 moons in the sky.

We believed it. In anticipation of seeing 2 moons that night, we spent the evening playing badminton, then I tried to sing with what was left of my croaky voice while dad jammed on the guitar with him. haha wasnt very successful though..After dinner we studied together, till 12 plus then went out to check the sky's condition. NO MOON! Even the the tiny cresent I saw at 9pm was gone! Baaaah =(

Of course I was pretty disappointed, since we took time off our busy schedule to anticipate a spectacular sight but it seemed as if we made a spectacle of ourselves instead. =P Well, it was such a nice 20min walk though. The sky was SuPeR DuPeR ReD! Wow never seen the sky so red manz! Hmmz mummy said it was just cos it was gonna rain, but I'd rather believe that Mars was probably so close to Earth that it's reddish colour lighted up our whole sky =)

Haha. Think im in denial? Sue me =P

Well although it was such an anti-climax ending for me that night, in the words of a famous SoMeOnE, it isn't the activity that matters, but the time spent with a great companion =)

That Sunday night, God showed me sooooo many things I need to learn. Haiz... so humbling, such a forceful reminder God gave me. I really need to learn so many things. All the time I think I know it all. Just when I'm satisfied with myself, I realise that I'm far from discerning, neither am i anywhere near wisdom. Scary, yet the peace that overwhelms me when I fret, is the knowledge that God's timing is perfect, His plan is flawless and His love, everlasting.

Ooooh what a long semester ahead to go. I'm excited =)

One week flown past

2006-08-18T22:18:00.000+08:00

Wow it's friday again. Before I know it, i think im gonna be in my last year in NUS! Gosh im scared to grow up.

Growing up just entails too much pressure, expectations and squeezes my brain dry! Haiz =(

Recently so many things have been taxing my poor lil brain and so many things i have to learn overnight. So many choices to make, so much so im forced to ask myself what i really want, what i really like, what my priorities are, blah blah...

Seek God's will. Yes! I AM seeking God's will in everything I do! BUT, what is it I really want? I have to know myself before I can deal with others right? Right.

Okay enough of all this melancholy.

Finally met up with Terence yest and gave him his shirt! Fun stuff! Missed talking to him sooo much! Haha though it was a really short meeting, we had time for Mee Siam and small talk. haha i miss AC CF! =) Silly Terence koped my sweets and still msg me to say "eh I'll help u finish your sweets k?" haha well i was more than delighted to let him have my sweets anyhow =) im so nice. hah.

Was in school from 9 -5 pm today. My first day of mugging got me lots of positive responses from frens who passed me by... " WAH! First week only so hardworking ah?!" and yet another "relax la!" Weird why pple are so surprised by my overt show of enthusiam for my readings when ive been so slack for the longest time manz! haha then taught kun to fold cranes and went swimming! Cool day =)

Lovely weekend.

Back to ScHooL

2006-08-16T02:49:00.000+08:00

Back to school blues... First day of school, Mon. Did soooo many things!

Passed my FTT (YEAH!) then rushed to school for a 3hour lec on Understanding Emotions in Interactive Processes. After which, went to Cathay with Choon to watch Lakehouse! Finally managed to catch Lakehouse and I cried at the ending! Silly me! Sad also cry, happy also cry.

Haha the message behind the movie was so apt. When Sandra Bullocks and Keneau Reeves waited, they managed to enjoy the fruits of their long awaited relationship. Although it was painful, it was worth it manz!

After the movie, had dinner at Park Lane at Song Kun's fav Wonton Stall next to Dr Leong's clinic with him, Choon and Gideon. Choon left at 8pm cos of Hall Initiation, then we waited for Chee Seng and Zong Geng. Long Hu Men... those 4 guys went to watch...

Yue Ling we should go watch together too! Haha yeah rite, now school reopen so busy le. Miss ya dearie.

Oh did i mention Choon slept in the bus and kept falling off his seat on our ride to Cathay? Yeah he did. Had to hold on to him (his sleeve rather) the whole ride lest he tumbled to the floor! hahaha then cos i was so blur, we missed the stop and walked all the way from Taka. Ooops =P

My day ended at 10pm. Exciting =)

Back to mugging again =P

Brrrr it's COLD!

2006-08-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

Fun day!! Finally went iceskating! Cheryl, Geoffrey, Song Kun, and Amos! Thanks you guys for making the day such an enjoyable and blessed one!

Cheryl! Thanks darling for making me laugh throughout the whole day with ur silliness! Hehe my dear brain! What would the body do without you?!

Geoffrey!Hope you didnt feel left out when cheryl and I both skated hand-in-hand, leaving you to skate alone =P But for someone skating for the first time you are super pro la! =)

Kunkun! Thanks for offering to go iceskating with me in the first place! heehee Im so glad I managed to make u feel young again (not that u are v old or anything =P) and I hope I infected you with my excitable laughs! lol go home and massage your leg well k dudey! ^_^

Amos! Thanks for joining us even though skating seemed to be quite traumatic for you! hehe hope you feel more confident the next time you skate! Yeah! =)

Overall, thank God for all the joy he brought all of us! heehee I finally gota iceskate after ages! lol the post- excitement still rings in my heart and im super duper high now! hehe

Jesus you are faithful...to the end! =)

Skating pics

2006-08-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

The first few photos were taken while we were waiting to skate... Song Kun sure has lotsa funny, weird, ridiculous actions! Lol

Cheryl and I! Awww we look so sweet together! hehehe

Amos and Kun trying to do funny actions... Amos looks angry but wat's up, kun's smiling! Spoil the pic la you...=P
Look who's pretending to be in fast motion?
The 2 prettiest gals in the skating ring!!! LoL =)
Hmmmz guys gossip alot too huh! (courtesy of cheryl)
Cheryl and Geoffrey!
Ku and Kun! =P
Geoffrey, Cheryl, me, Kun and Amos! Baaah why is everyone so tall?! =P

Food Hunt at ELBC!

2006-07-30T23:30:00.000+08:00

Super amazed that I managed to join Eternal Life Baptist Church with their food hunt today!

I was so sure that I wouldn't be going, since I didnt think that Song Kun's stomach upset would be ok by today. So silly me didnt bring an extra set of clothes to change into after games with the Sec 2s!

And so, I ended up trekking into ELBC and through their food hunt with my super casual shorts and T-shirt and my runnning shoes. So paiseh, go for other people's church service dressed so informally! Although it seemed weird that I was not wearing high heels (as i usually do) , after the entire thing I realised track shoes are quite nice to wear too! haha lol...

Song Kun's church is so small and cosy that the pastor even knew everybody's names! How cool is that la! Imagine Pastor Malcom naming me as an example during service? Eh i'll be embarassed la!

Learned much today =)

"Well done my good and faithful servant, Dawn". That is what I want to hear from God when it's time for me to meet him. But meanwhile, Im not alone. I've got Jesus with me!

Bible Quiz Pics!

2006-07-29T23:53:00.000+08:00

BiBLe QUiZ

2006-07-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

Bible Quiz 06! 1 Corinthians! A great success! Why? Cos of the Holy Spirit's presence which filled the entire church with joy and peace!

Started the day at 10am! Helped a bit by pasting puzzle pieces here and there and played with Janielle! Oooh Janielle is so inquisitive! I wonder what I was like when I was 10 months old man! Think I made alot of noise! Haha!

Oh! Invited Song Kun to help out at Bible Quiz too! Hmmz think it was some spiritual attack that he came down with stomachache since early morning! Thanks dude for coming down to help even when you started getting a headache! Really sorry for not asking u to go home earlier! Glad you learnt something today, even when you weren't in the best condition =(

Sec 2s came in 4th outa 8 groups! Not bad! We weren't first but it doesn't matter, cos we are all winners in God's eyes! =) Yeah! Don't forget k guys, GAMES DAY tomorrow!!! To award you guys, we are taking a break from lessons! =)

Overall, I saw God's hand in all that we did, because without God, all our work would have been in vain! Blessed are those who labour for the Lord because our reward is in heaven! Yeah!

3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers for Jesus Christ! Hip hip hurrray! Hip hip hurray! Hip hip hurray! =)

Lovely Week

2006-07-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

Lovely week of rest =)

Relaxing at home and having God's peace. That feeling is just heaven on earth!

I never knew how loud and distinct God's word and voice could be. Now I know =) When God speaks, and I listen, I feel so happy about it! Why? Cos that's when I know Im obeying the right command! How can u claim to be obedient to your Father when you have never heard His voice?

Ooooh I just love my Lord for being so gracious even when I dont deserve it! Who could ever love me more than you oh Lord? No one! =)

Bible Quiz on Saturday! My lovely Sec 2s, we are gonna do our best for this quiz! Our Daddy in heaven sees our heart when we seek Him, so remember, winning is only a bonus! It aint everything! =) The first will be last and the last will be the first!

Cant wait for Bible Quiz! =)

Pictures from Minds Cafe Outing

2006-07-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

Yue Ling with her bdae prezzie from me!

Guess what game we were playing? Ooooh it was super fun! hehe maybe cos i kept winning? lol

In A Pickle was the name of the game (oooh it ryhmes! did i tell u i have a fetish for ryhming stuff?) =P

Happy Birthday Daddy!

2006-07-19T23:26:00.000+08:00

The Family at Haagen Dazs after dinner at Laguna. Mum and i were gossiping, thus we werent in the pic! =P Hmmm sis took a candid photo of us after that, but nah dun wanna put it up =P

Minds Cafe

2006-07-18T23:46:00.000+08:00

Happy Beeeeelated 20th Bdae Yue Ling darling! =)

I really enjoyed having lunch, playing board games and eating dinner with you! =) Glad you had fun too! Oh you look really nice with the kiwi necklace (not just cos i bought it or cos it's blue) cos you look good with anything =)

Minds Cafe is a really great place to bring frens to and to see the interaction between each other. I wanna go again before school reopens! heehee =) well it also depends on who wants to go with me. Any volunteers? lol i think 4 pple is a good number =) * hint*

Okay off to sleep i better go =) Nitez

Fun stuff

2006-07-17T21:22:00.000+08:00

Alvin came over to return me my Condor Heroes today =)

Made sushi for him, gosh, and revealed the super clumsy side of me too! lol well I discovered he's even more enticed by shopping than me! We both liked what we saw in Qbay, but I restrained myself from wasting money yet HE instead bought so many things la! hmmm he says it's not "shopping" but "buying" since he bought everything from the same shop. Like whatever alvin. =P

Today was like exchanging of skills or something. Haha he taught me how to make the beaded cross while i taught him to make flowers. Learnt alot today man. Thanks dude =)

Yue Ling decided not to go iceskating tmrw. We are gonna try out Minds Cafe instead. hmmm hope i dont get lost tmrw though =P