:: Happy Birthday ::
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Friday, January 28, 2005
:: Blessing or Curse?? ::
Then she went to Secondary school. Well, she continued to feel blessed =)
Then came college. She started to take her own public transport.. but that was often limited to going back home from school. Even then, it was only like once or twice a week the most and limited to the mrt only. Well, of course she still felt blessed! She never had to melt under the sweltering hot sun nor soak under the dreadful cold rain.
Then there came a time when the days of wearing school uniforms were over. Still, the little girl never had much to worry about! All her friends found jobs. What did the little girl do? She continued to study. Even then, she was blessed and she never had to take her own public transport.
One day, she had a date with her friends to meet for dinner. She decided she would take the bus to the mrt station. However, she took time forgranted and left the house late. She rushed down a flight of concrete steps, hoping not to miss the bus. To her dismay, the bus appeared while she was still steps aways from it! She rushed down the flight of steps, hoping to catch the bus... "PLING PLONG" she tripped and her right leg scrapped the concrete floor! What a mess of things! However she decided not to turn back home but waited for the next bus instead...
During the 15 min wait, her heart pounded with anxiousness and fear. She was tempted to run back home and nurse her wound, but ultimately she did not. She waited till she got on the mrt then she called her mum to tell her what had happened.
This whole incident got the little girl thinking. It was good that she never had to be independent all her life. Now she wanted to taste independence but nothing turned out right! Her mum insisted on fetching her but would that be a blessing? Or would that be a curse?
I was that little girl.
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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
:: Nostalgia ::
All im doing nowadays is juz watch lotsa tv, read my counselling books and finish the hw assigned to me..seems so dull =( Hehehe but guess wat? Meeting up with yueling, lynsey, xiaowei n emily at 6pm! Long lost frens!!! Saw winny at church on sunday too!!! haha i miss school not cos of the studying..im sure all of us in the right mind won't? =P hmmz..i miss the frens.. the talking crap n everything else..baah..=P
Hmmz..some part of me was bugging the whole of last week.. finally i went to check out on some childcare - Kidzmonte yesterday. I felt so bored the past few days..counselling classes are only on mon and thur nites..so seldom.. and ive got so many books to read! Coped up at home i feel like bursting. Everyone's working, im lazing at home =( Finally, i made the move to check out if Kidzmonte needed some help..told them i could only start after march tho..but at least i got started asking instead of building castles in the air.
Talking about castles..i'm reminded of what Wilson taught us in class.. a neurotic person builds castles in the air while a psychotic person moves in..cheem ah the analogy? U go figure out =P
Larry Crabb is a super good author i reckon..Well, after reading 3 of his counselling books, it's almost impossible not to like him =P
Amongst the 3, guess I like Shattered Dreams best. Well i havent finished reading it though..maybe i'll tell u more about it when i finish =)
Well tata for now! And to my dear Maddy who will be reading this, all the best for ur Tsunami project..love ya dearie! =)
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Tuesday, January 18, 2005
:: White Teeth >_< ::
I was juz wondering..why do some pple take out their braces, excited about the new set of straight teeth they have, only to suffer from stained teeth? Hmmz..isnt it juz so ironic?
Not too long ago i juz removed my braces only to discover that the glue stains were quite bad..
Thank God however, my dentist is one great guy! He told me to buy some whitening gel for only $50..compared to the $600 one must pay to bleach one's teeth..=)
heh..at first i used it nonstop for the first few days then i got lazy...=( the after effect of the gel was that my gums hurt quite bad, thus after 4 dosages i stopped whitening my teeth altogether.
Consequence? My teeth are now nothing like the white pearly teeth i dreamed them to be after whitening!
haha..today i asked my dentist how come the whitening gel did not work, my dentist told me that i needed to use it at least 10-20 times before it would remain shiny white! haha lazy me only stopped at the 4th try! how could I have expected it to work?!
Somehow i managed to draw a parallel to this situation to many othe situations in our life.
God knows what's best for us all the time, but we as humans are often stubborn and doubt that He knows best. Okay, imagine God is my dentist. He tells me the whitening gel is good for me. What do i do?! I look for fast results. in other words, i am bent on getting my own way, which is to have white teeth ASAP.
What is the result? I do not get what i want within the period of time i expect to get it and i begin to blame God for not keeping up to His promise. What caused me to think so? Obstacles like my painful gum caused me to lose focus on the end product - whitened teeth.
Why are we always so distracted?! Why cant we just put 100% trust in God, and allow Him to work in our lives? We will then enjoy MUCH MORE than just whiteneed teeth..we'll enjoy riches in HEAVEN! Well, just something for us to think about i guess..=)
Hehe..so i bet u know what i intend to do now?! Haha..gona start using the whitening gel everyday so that i get nice white teeth in time for Chinese New Year =) Whether i persevere to the end or not..i guess u guys will know when u see me yah? *wink*
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Saturday, January 15, 2005
:: Studying is BLISS? ::
School uniforms. Not that im a big fan of wearing them, just that they symbolise a rigid structure and an orderly system. School is smth u noe is fixed, orderly and u live each day knowing what the next brings..roughly at least.
Now? most people are working while waiting for results. i heard from many that desk jobs are sianz..social jobs like teaching is hectic, tiring, draining, but meaninful at least. Waitressing? Well it's quite..ermm..tiring to walk to n fro, put on a big smile to welcome customers..well i guess diff pple chose diff jobs cos God gave us each diff gifts n talents =)
Sometimes i wonder why life is the way it is. I think everybody does too? I mean mentaly i noe God has planned stuff for me..but i cant help feeling a bit dejected sometimes..(i think clammie noes what i mean)
Haha..duno if i shld pen down certain feelings..it isnt really a very good testamony but..=(
Kk.. i DETEST change. God recently allowed change in the grp of frens i have bonded to. I dun really like the new grp of frens God has given me. I have BAD preconceived ideas about them..and I cant seem to come to terms with myself!!! Argh!!!
Hehe..pple who know me know that im..let's say..more conservative and conventional. Old fashioned, rigid and no-nonsense type of person to say it less nicely. Haha..not that im unhappy with myself for being that, in fact i like being who God has made me! BUT..u noe it's human to compare urself with others sometimes.. That's when i feel angry with myself for not meeting up to my own standards of myself. Issues in my life im facing.. haha but not convenient to say in a blog..=P
Oh wellz..really glad today that i manage to go out with Jog!!!! haha with the gals plus v-shawn of course =P SO HAPPY! Haha.. we had lunch at nooch @ wheelock then went to paragon Baker's Inn for cake ( guess who's idea it was to have dessert there..SU of course..the tai tai )
Weizhen rushed there in her hockey attire n STICK..haha so glad to see everybody..ALmoST.. haha the guys are suffering in army..they'll be out on thur tho..gd for them =P when we meet them..they'll be w/o hair! =P lol
I learnt at counselling course that frenship is important because God knows our deepest needs for security in love. However, when we do not seem to get the frenship we yearn for, that just means that in His plan, God knows that we do not need that frenship. The main point is that we should place our need for security in a Person who will not fail us, and that is Jesus. Only then can we face setbks n praise God at the same time =)
Wellz..juz felt a sudden urge to let ALL my dear frens know, I LOVE U ALL lots! Thanks for bearing my nonsense..haha *wink*
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Thursday, January 13, 2005
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Friday, January 07, 2005
:: The BanE! thE Pain! Of the Church and its people!!! ::
I was just reading this article about this tennis player, Arthur Ashe who contracted aids through blood transfusion. He had such a horrible "stroke of luck" which effectively smashed his dreams and his life! But what should've left with a broken man was a man full of praise!
"Ashe could have become embittered and self-pitying in the face of his disease, but he maintained a grateful attitude. He explained, "If I asked, 'Why me?' about my troubles, I would have to ask, 'Why me?' about my blessings. Why my winning Wimbledon? Why my marrying a beautiful, gifted woman and having a wonderful child?" "
Wow! But isn't it true? I'd like to use the analogy of the 50% filled cup.. By saying its half empty or half full, you are technically correct! However, it shows you what you're focussing on! If you're obsessed about not getting enough, of not getting your way, not getting security - you look at the empty part and complain about the short fall... But if all your life, you've just been looking for the blessings of God on your life, even a single drop will cause you to rejoice!!
I guess we face alot of problems in life too huh? Sometimes we don't get our way - the church service might be dead, or relationships don't go the way you want, .. and we ask questions like, why doesn't the pastor do more of this? Or why can't we all sing louder? Or why doesn't this person like me?... I hope we don't start justifying such questions by claiming to want to have the best for God!
If the people with the barest minimum can worship with all their hearts, and feel blessed by a horribly translated sermon... that means that God's presence clearly doesn't depend on how we feel...
He's everywhere, is how much we're willing to focus on Him, and not the rituals and ambience of His House...
Yup, what are the rituals and ambience in church for? Does sub-standard rituals and ambience chase away the presence of God? Can poorly-skilled church leaders chase away the presence of God?
��If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her.�� Let us be wary of the spirit in which we judge people and their spirit... Though we might be doing the honorable deed of improving our aspects of rituals and ambience, Are we out to condemn and destroy, or are we out to build and construct the love that binds us all together? The Fruits of His spirit are laid out clearly for us... Be wary of WarMongering, the devil is a sly one, he's a master of reasoning out his devious plans to divide the church.
We build each other and encourage each other. Why judge the level of skills when the ultimate One we're pleasing judges by the heart of His servants?
WWJD John 12:47
��As for the person who hears my words but does not keep them, I do not judge him. For I did not come to judge the world, but to save it.
Matthew 7 Judging Others 1��Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. 3��Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?
So if we know that there's something that can be changed, but we are not to judge, how do we help better a church service for example.
The key is in the spirit which you try to correct it in! Don't forget you're dealing with your fellow brother and sister-in-christ who have feelings and are after God's heart.
Heb 3 13
But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.
This means going to people as friends... not as a disgruntled customer...
We don't go to these people and start airing our grieviences, but we go to them with a solution at hand, offering to help, not destroy the spirit of another.
But I guess it all goes back to what or who do we focus more on?
Is something Half empty or is it half full?
With regards to how church services are,
Am I looking for ways to please myself or am I looking at the way God pleases me?
Singers can always be better than the previous singer, sermons can always be more funny or relevant than another.. what are we seeking for in trying to improve our church? Are we trying to make things suit our generation? Are we trying to make the church more welcoming for new comers? OR, are we trying to please God...
Its the root of your spirit that counts .. what are you focussing on?
Arthur Ashe had probably a much less filled cup than most people, but to him, that little bit of blessing is worth so much to him that his cup overflows with unending joy! Even with reality of death on his side, the devil can't overpower the joy of His spirit...
he just can't....
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Thursday, January 06, 2005
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Our Lovely House of God!
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Wednesday, January 05, 2005
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The photos i've uploaded on the blog each represent different parts of my life which I so gladly wanna share with u so enjoy! =)
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:: My honour too! =) ::
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:: honoured. haha. =] ::
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:: God is Love ::
Anyway, what an interesting statement - God is Love..
You know, in all my experience with life and christian living, the most powerful force that God gives to us is Love.
I mean, prophesy can be really impressive, miracles even more! But, these do not impact men as much as love..
But above all, Love...
hmm... wonder why God is Love?
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:: Looking Ahead ::
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:: New Year New Surprises ::
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:: Old Year Behind ::
Time flies man! Had a great holiday in december man!
Went Thailand and Hong Kong..One week each..Wat different cultures both countries had! Still,Singapore's the BEST! As Yue Ling said, though not perfect, it's the best place to me!
The old year taught me alot about friendships and relationships... Most importantly, it brought me much closer to God! I'm so thankful for His provision during the past year and for the continual povision I know He gives me.
From church camps to prom to carolling to holidays to Christmas then to holidays and to the New Year..wow God has been HERE! thank God for the fun-filled holidays I've had, as well as the closer family bonds I now enjoy =)
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