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Saturday, January 15, 2005

:: Studying is BLISS? ::

2 weeks into the new year and im beggining to feel a sense of loss. Not loss as in dunno wat to do, but loss as in im finally come to terms with the fact that my days of wearing sch uniforms are over. Fortunately or unfortunately.

School uniforms. Not that im a big fan of wearing them, just that they symbolise a rigid structure and an orderly system. School is smth u noe is fixed, orderly and u live each day knowing what the next brings..roughly at least.

Now? most people are working while waiting for results. i heard from many that desk jobs are sianz..social jobs like teaching is hectic, tiring, draining, but meaninful at least. Waitressing? Well it's quite..ermm..tiring to walk to n fro, put on a big smile to welcome customers..well i guess diff pple chose diff jobs cos God gave us each diff gifts n talents =)

Sometimes i wonder why life is the way it is. I think everybody does too? I mean mentaly i noe God has planned stuff for me..but i cant help feeling a bit dejected sometimes..(i think clammie noes what i mean)

Haha..duno if i shld pen down certain feelings..it isnt really a very good testamony but..=(
Kk.. i DETEST change. God recently allowed change in the grp of frens i have bonded to. I dun really like the new grp of frens God has given me. I have BAD preconceived ideas about them..and I cant seem to come to terms with myself!!! Argh!!!

Hehe..pple who know me know that im..let's say..more conservative and conventional. Old fashioned, rigid and no-nonsense type of person to say it less nicely. Haha..not that im unhappy with myself for being that, in fact i like being who God has made me! BUT..u noe it's human to compare urself with others sometimes.. That's when i feel angry with myself for not meeting up to my own standards of myself. Issues in my life im facing.. haha but not convenient to say in a blog..=P

Oh wellz..really glad today that i manage to go out with Jog!!!! haha with the gals plus v-shawn of course =P SO HAPPY! Haha.. we had lunch at nooch @ wheelock then went to paragon Baker's Inn for cake ( guess who's idea it was to have dessert there..SU of course..the tai tai )
Weizhen rushed there in her hockey attire n STICK..haha so glad to see everybody..ALmoST.. haha the guys are suffering in army..they'll be out on thur tho..gd for them =P when we meet them..they'll be w/o hair! =P lol

I learnt at counselling course that frenship is important because God knows our deepest needs for security in love. However, when we do not seem to get the frenship we yearn for, that just means that in His plan, God knows that we do not need that frenship. The main point is that we should place our need for security in a Person who will not fail us, and that is Jesus. Only then can we face setbks n praise God at the same time =)

Wellz..juz felt a sudden urge to let ALL my dear frens know, I LOVE U ALL lots! Thanks for bearing my nonsense..haha *wink*

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6:25 PM
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About Me

Dawn Ku
God's Child
23rd October 1986
Methodist Girls' School
Anglo-Chinese Junior College
National University of Singapore
Barker Road Methodist Church

Adores

God the Father
Jesus Christ the Son
Daddy
Mummy
Meizi
All my Sec 3s

Loathes

Satan and his lackeys
Sin

Wants

All whom I know to be saved
To Know God Deeper
To Shine for the Lord
To Walk my Talk