Sink into God's arms... Relax.

Saturday, April 30, 2005

:: Happy Birthday Maddy! ::

Dear Maddy

Happy Birthday dearie! Sorry i didnt have time to mail u..but if u read this, u know i remembered u!

Love ya lots sweetie!

Will pass u your Bdae present soon okie? =)

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10:11 AM
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

:: School!!! ::

Back to school again!

Hehe..crashed ac today..=P Joined Michelle's class for assembly and lectures..lolz..so cool to be back in school..in full school uniform, singing the National Anthem, listening to devotions and anouncements..JC life all spinning before me once again. =)

Woah..i was like super excited last nite man! Only fell asleep at 2am and woke up at 5am..haha and today i was sleepy just after going for 2 lectures! My goodness, i think im out of touch with school life liao! So sad..haha

Oh wow but guess wat today taught me? Be contented that i dont have to wear school uniforms on sweltering hot and humid Tuesdays no more! Argh was super sticky in uni today lah! hehe..just hear me complain..

Had my first Bio lecture in my whole life today (never took bio before) on DNA..So cool!! Robosomes and codons and watnots..haha had fun ah!

Sigh my only regret was that i had so many "free periods" today =( Was hoping to go for more lectures..hehe i might seem like a freak i noe..actually wanting to go for lectures when everybody else cant wait to pon lectures =P hehe..but seriously speaking, boy am i glad that i was only "visiting" lectures today and not everyday..just to strenuous lah =p

Woah..the library? I like it =) the sofas they placed on the first level..wah shiok man! During GP, i didnt go, for obvious reasons..sank into one of the comfy sofas in the library and took up a book on Chinese Idioms to read. Hahaha..i can just see the faces of disbelief plus disgust plus diswhatever at the mention of chinese =P but i just love it anyways =)

Spend the first half of my day trying to avoid teachers who knew me..lest they kicked me out or something =O wouldnt want that =P

The hilarious thing was the look on people who saw me.. Michelle was enjoying herself thoroughly i could tell =) so was I!!! Some of those who saw me waved at me spontaneously, only to turn back in a split second looking confused. Others scratched their head in confusion..wondering why i looked so familiar, yet unfamiliar =P Most just bulged their eyes out as the first response to seeing me back in acjc in my school uniform..Boy did i have a good time! Hehehe..all the attention given me...

The high point of the day? Went for Miss Pang's math lecture =P the J1s made me hand in their attendence book to her and she sure was shocked to see me alright! =P Ermm she referred to me as "Alien", pointed her finger at me and indicated i was naughty and she said "huh..tresspassing ah"...lolz..wanted to crash her tutorial as well..dont dare to already =P

Saw Miss Netty, Mdm Joyce Low, Mdm Sophia Ng, Mrs Choo and Mis Pang..didnt dare to appear before Miss Marhaini lest she screamed at me! lolz.. Mdm Sophia didnt want me to join her GP class..guess why? She said she wouldnt stop laughing cos "my class has a small J3 who is trying to pass off as a J1" So funny!

Well, thought the day was funfilled and all..I was super tired by the end..and HOT and STICKY too! haha..Enough for a long while..it'll take a push and a push factor to get me back to school as a "crashie" again.

Cool day.

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10:09 PM
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Sunday, April 24, 2005

:: Why? ::

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10:32 PM
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Daddy left for USA this morning.

Last night we drove out to East Coast Park to pray for daddy's trip, as well as for the rest of the family.

This year has been a year of travelling for daddy..well, good in a way that he hasnt travelled in a long while and he misses it i guess. Bad in a way that he's getting old..muscles stiffening and back's aching all the time.. Long flights never seem as friendly now as they were in the past.

We always pray that daddy gets an upgrade to business class so that there is more leg space and it aint so crammed for him. Marvellously, God seems to always graciously grant daddy his upgrade.. something which we never take forgranted, and are always thrilled by.

Somewhere in another corner of the country another family fervently prays. This time, it's for the recovery of their daddy who is terminally ill. God seems so far and indifferent. Why? Is our God so fickle? So superficial? So weird?

I dont have an answer of course. Call me God if i ever have the answer to life and death, suffering and joy.

The fact is, only God knows exactly why a particular infliction is caused on someone. God in addition, also knows why evil seems to prevail. Sometimes, God punishes. Other times, God rewards. Most of the time (in my own opinion & experiences) God tests. God uses EVERYTHING in this life to bring us closer to Him.

Why cant man seem to attain eternal happiness on earth? For the pure reason that only Heaven is perfect. Many people go through life blaming God for their "bad luck" and call Him "unfair" or even reject Him. The reason for the Tsunami, earthquakes, suffering and pain is only clear when we meet God face to face when our times are up.

However, we know who God is. Knowing that God IS love, He must have the most perfect reason for everything He does. We cling on to the hope that heaven is the place where we never have to suffer anymore. After all, what is suffering for 100 years on earth so that we can gain eternal joy in heaven??

Well... the promise of heaven? It's only true to those with the right faith. The Saving Faith. Being SURE of what we hope for and CERTAIN of what we do not see.

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10:01 PM
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Thursday, April 21, 2005

:: Mellie's Bdae! ::

Monday was eventful =)

My dear cousin Mellie's 13th Bdae!!! Mellie, Markie, my sis and I had a great time taking neocards though time was short and we couldnt stay out longer.

Mellie had a pleasant surprise when we turned up =) Guess what? She finally had her mummy's approval to pierce her ears! We brought her to Bits n Pieces. Funny thing was that all of us gals had no earholes..so we showed signs of over-fascination and "sua ku"ness...

Me? I dont think i'll ever pierce my ears lah..not for ethical issues nor for fear of the pain..i just dont think it's necessary. As the Bible says, "all things are permissible for me, but not all things are beneficial".

Well, i guess earholes would allow me to put on an additional set of jewellery..but what would that just mean? Additional opportunity to be vain? haha..well at least that's my mum's point of view..and i second that point of view =) nono im not trying to say people with earrings are vain..hmmz..maybe they are..haha..well i guess only we would know ourselves better..and only God would know us best =)

Well i did find the experience pretty cool though..haha..though my ears werent the ones that got pierced =P Had a great day..spent LOTSA $$..watched Sahara with Markie..took neocards..picked Mel up..pierced her ears...had lunch at taka yoshinoya..then took more neocards with mel n sis..then time to go home......

Yawn....

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11:51 AM
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Monday, April 11, 2005

:: Moving On ::

Havent updated for almost a month. How time flies huh! The March hols seemed like only yesterday..and very soon the June hols are coming!

Hmmz..12th April marks my last day at Bizibody Technology. Quite happy to leave the company cos i dont think im very suited for an office environment. Well i guess it was a super good experience for me. As the first job i have ever taken up, i got to learn how to handle stress, people, as well as money.

The job widened my horizon.

One thing bad about me is my habit of procrastinating. I take forever to get started on doing something i really want to do. Either i dont dare or i dont care to pursue my goals. All along i was happy being me. Didnt wanna change. Now? Im beginning to see that change is good if change can bring me closer to God.

Had a minor tiff with mummy a few days ago. I know she was worried that i'd get cheated by others cos she says im too guilible and that i dunno how to say no to people. In a fit of anger i said that i would gladly be cheated by people. Of course that was not how i truely felt. As all tiffs with mummy always end up, i approached her with sincere remorse and acceptance of her good will.

I have always been pretty pleased with myself for not knowing things. I am happy with being "blur" and unaware of the harsh realities of life. The world, however, makes it seem like a sin to retain our innocence and renames innocence as ignorance. As Terence said, mummy didnt mean for me not to be nice to others again, just that there should be a limit. Which parent would gladly see their child cheated?

Well he said being nice is one thing and saying no is another...haiz... Sad to say so, with age, i seem to perceive both to be the same. Somehow i tend to be increasingly obliging towards others. This bodes both good and bad. Bad means that others' opinions of me seem to matter alot. Good means that maybe im learning more of God's unconditional love???

All i can say is that there is soooo much more about God that im still learning about. I want to know Him more but the path seems so long and dreary. I often encourage others but i think that sometimes i dont show how needy i am instead. Hmmz...why ah?

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12:03 AM
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