Sink into God's arms... Relax.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

:: The Week ::

This week was hectic!

Did so many rps this week, did assignments, did readings and although today was equally tiring, I really had a blessed time =)

Went lunch with Guo Jun, then went bowling with SK, last of all, went church for the YSS Leader's Meeting. The weather was really wet and pretty dreary. However, thank God for seeing me through the day and helping me enjoy such fun!

Lunch at Spageddies was not bad! The spaghetti meat sauce was reasonably sumptious =)

Bowling was even more fun! Haven't bowled in ages manz! Played 3 games, got 80+, then 93, then the last game, which ended nicely with 106 =) haha not bad huh! SK beat me with 112 in the last game..haha although i beat him only marginally in the first 2 games =P oh well i guess my max potential is pretty low, as usual =P It was a breathtaking time of exercising our right hands and left legs though! (those who bowl would know why)

YSS Leader's meeting was amazing. With Ryan taking over Ben as 8.30 Sup, YSS is gonna continue bearing fruit and AMEN to that! I really need to spend more time praying for the sec 3 class cos they are a bunch of flowers just waiting to bloom! All they need is constant watering and pruning and TADA, we'll get lovely roses and lilies and hibicus and sunflowers and many more different types of lovely plants! With Justin and Robyn, we are gonna commit the class into the Lord's hands!

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Thursday, January 18, 2007

:: Blessed 21st Birthday Meixuan! ::

Happy happy blessed 21st birthday away from home my dearest Mei!

Missing ya lots! Take care! =)

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Monday, January 01, 2007

:: Grace ::

I have tasted God's grace. His grace is more than sufficient for me!

God's grace is bringing me home safely just before the Bangkok bombing. If we had left just 3 hours later, we might have been caught in the bombings cos our hotel was relatively near the Freedom Monument (arnd which there were some bombs).

God's grace is allowing the family to enjoy our New Year's eve in reflection of the year 2006, to learn more about each other, to work towards adapting to each other's changes in the new year.

God's grace is giving me the best family, although best doesnt mean without flaws. All humans have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. However, together we learn and correct each other, helping each other work towards Christlikeness.

God's grace is providing me with wonderful friends who keep me in constant prayer and remember me even when we dont keep in contact.

God's grace is the very gift of life itself.

I used to hope that I would die soon so that I could escape the ugly world that we live in. I very much hoped that Christ would come again really soon, before I have to die, so that my entire family would be raptured together, painless and gloriously.

Is that still my hope today? Well heaven is definitely by far better than earth. However, that selfish me has learnt that life is granted to me by God so that I can show myself worthy of heaven! Christ himself left the comfort of heaven, to be born on Christmas day, so as to give us the gift of live eternally! Who am I, selfish and demanding to wish to escape from pain?

I am nobody, but in Christ I am somebody. I am special and I am given the sacred task of spreading God's love. His grace, I am to share with the world. His cross, I am to take up and live the life He lived for me. His people, I am to love like He loves, even sinners.

Grace. Undeserving favour.

I apologise for the times I sound condescending, prejudiced and condemning. I am sorry for the times I forget that Christ himself ate with sinners and the least of man. I am sorry for sometimes being like the Pharisee who scorned the tax collector, for Christ did ask in Matt 7:3 about judging others,"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?"

However, I know that Christ also mentioned clearly about hating sin and the world we live in , and being in the world, but not of the world. We are told to hate the sin, not the sinner. Be very clear about what the Bible means by "judging". Judging is different from discernment. We are commanded to discern right from wrong, truth from lies, and good from evil. Condemn the sin, but love the sinner, just as Christ did.

I'm learning, I'm trying. It is hard sometimes to clearly divide the sin from the sinner. Yet, I know I must, for as God has showered His grace upon my family and me, I too am called to be gracious even towards my enemies.

Maybe that's why I kept dreaming of TY and even JC. Not that they were really my enemies or anything, but maybe just cos I have yet to forgive and love them totally? Hmmz distance makes the heart grow further... So true. Further and further away from my memory, my consciousness. How about my subconsious mind? That, I cant be absolutely sure of.

If dreams are a reflection of what we think of in the day, how come I dont seem to dream of the person I wish to dream of? How come the person's image in my mind seems so fuzzy? Could my thoughts be a part of my fantasy and ideal? Maybe I was actually dreaming when I thought I was awake and thinking?

Oops I deviated. But yes, God's grace in my life is immeasurably amazing and overwhelming. All the times I was unsure, was scared, all the times I was unknowing and oblivious, God's hand of protection has never left me.

"The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want."

Thank you Lord, and I praise your Holy name. 2007, your year, your time of revelation.

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