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Monday, April 11, 2005

:: Moving On ::

Havent updated for almost a month. How time flies huh! The March hols seemed like only yesterday..and very soon the June hols are coming!

Hmmz..12th April marks my last day at Bizibody Technology. Quite happy to leave the company cos i dont think im very suited for an office environment. Well i guess it was a super good experience for me. As the first job i have ever taken up, i got to learn how to handle stress, people, as well as money.

The job widened my horizon.

One thing bad about me is my habit of procrastinating. I take forever to get started on doing something i really want to do. Either i dont dare or i dont care to pursue my goals. All along i was happy being me. Didnt wanna change. Now? Im beginning to see that change is good if change can bring me closer to God.

Had a minor tiff with mummy a few days ago. I know she was worried that i'd get cheated by others cos she says im too guilible and that i dunno how to say no to people. In a fit of anger i said that i would gladly be cheated by people. Of course that was not how i truely felt. As all tiffs with mummy always end up, i approached her with sincere remorse and acceptance of her good will.

I have always been pretty pleased with myself for not knowing things. I am happy with being "blur" and unaware of the harsh realities of life. The world, however, makes it seem like a sin to retain our innocence and renames innocence as ignorance. As Terence said, mummy didnt mean for me not to be nice to others again, just that there should be a limit. Which parent would gladly see their child cheated?

Well he said being nice is one thing and saying no is another...haiz... Sad to say so, with age, i seem to perceive both to be the same. Somehow i tend to be increasingly obliging towards others. This bodes both good and bad. Bad means that others' opinions of me seem to matter alot. Good means that maybe im learning more of God's unconditional love???

All i can say is that there is soooo much more about God that im still learning about. I want to know Him more but the path seems so long and dreary. I often encourage others but i think that sometimes i dont show how needy i am instead. Hmmz...why ah?

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About Me

Dawn Ku
God's Child
23rd October 1986
Methodist Girls' School
Anglo-Chinese Junior College
National University of Singapore
Barker Road Methodist Church

Adores

God the Father
Jesus Christ the Son
Daddy
Mummy
Meizi
All my Sec 3s

Loathes

Satan and his lackeys
Sin

Wants

All whom I know to be saved
To Know God Deeper
To Shine for the Lord
To Walk my Talk